6th Post of today

OK... I really didn't mean to blog so much but as a friend was asking me about how to delete blog comments, I suddenly realised that I had 8 comments dating back to Nov 2005 that I didn't moderate and allow for publish. =P Apologies to those who had left the comments and wondered what happened to them! Gomen ne!

Amongst these were one left by Princess in July, before the conclusion of my last relationship. And I wish I had read her comment earlier, before I went to Hong Kong, because it articulated, so clearly, the problem that I had with Bee.

Because you see, you can't love someone for the promise of what
they can be. You have to love them for their imperfections.

Butter!

I guess you can see how bored I am when I'm single and not motivated to do work. =P This post is just to mark the birth of Butter (scroll to the bottom of the page), a grey hamster that I just adopted. Would have picked mouse if they had one, and made it brown in memory of its namesake*. But I guess a hamster's pretty close. =) You can click the wheel to make it run or click "more" to feed it strawberries (click at its mouth; If you click elsewhere, it would sniff at it).

* Butter - female mouse, brown. Pet mouse when I was in Sec 3 or 4. It mated with Bread (black male mouse) and produced Milk, Cookie, Salt, Pepper and I-can't-remember-the-name-of-its-fifth-baby (Therefore, the others were named after easy-to-remember stuff. =P)

4th post of today

Blogging more regularly these days. I guess it's because:

1. I'm less hung up about work these days.
2. Nothing much else to do while waiting for people to reply to my msn msgs (since I'm not doing notes).
3. My life doesn't revolve mostly around one person anymore.
4. I've decided to put more feelings into my blog.

Mummy cooked watercress soup today... even though i dislike watercress, thought I'd better take more soup in hope that my sore throat would go away...

Anyway, I wonder how many people actually talk over the phone these days. For me, I usually only use the phone to chat with boyfriends. =P Before boyfriends came along, I hardly ever used the phone to chat with anyone.

People seem to be using instant messaging a lot more... Is it part of the multi-tasking culture? That instant messaging would allow one to be able to multi-task better? Or is it because instant messaging would give one time to think of a reply, rather than have to say things over the phone that could potentially explode in one's face? Or is it because instant messaging allows us to hide our emotions?

Stupid SE cable: PC can't detect my hp

Yes, facing that problem again. One of the reasons that puts me off using SE phones. Maybe I'll switch back to Nokia next year...

If not for the lousy connection, would have uploaded some pics of my completed mini-project. =) The magazine said it'ld take 6 hrs - I took 6 days. =P Of course, it's only because I was only working on it for an hour or so per day, even when I was in the Maldives. Maldivians had never seen my mini-project type of stuff before! I was quite surprised. Anyway, hope this thing will brighten up someone's day...

Anyway, after effects of not drinking enough water in the Maldives - zit developing on my forehead and woke up w a sore throat today. 3 dessertspoons of Pi Pa Gao hasn't had much effect... =/

You Are 30% Left Brained, 70% Right Brained

The left side of your brain controls verbal ability, attention to detail, and reasoning. Left brained people are good at communication and persuading others. If you're left brained, you are likely good at math and logic. Your left brain prefers dogs, reading, and quiet.

The right side of your brain is all about creativity and flexibility. Daring and intuitive, right brained people see the world in their unique way. If you're right brained, you likely have a talent for creative writing and art. Your right brain prefers day dreaming, philosophy, and sports.

Are You Right or Left Brained?

How could I live without You

How could I survive
Without Your love
Without Your touch
You're the
One that heals me
And cleanses my heart
And sets me free

Led the cell through this song just one or two weeks before I stopped attending cell.

The message in yesterday's service was that

"I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me." - Phi 4: 13

How? By receiving abundant grace, walking in active faith and resting in His love. Faith is our response to God's Grace. Pastor Gerald also showed a clip about Rick Hoyt and his dad Dick. A touching true story about at how Dick, spurred by a father's love for his son, participated in triathlons FOR and WITH him. It reminded me of a poem that I came across on a friend's blog earlier yesterday afternoon.

I was further reminded that we should always have faith in the Lord and of something that someone had said to me. By the end of yesterday's service, I came to a decision to let someone go. And I did. For the third or fourth time. Even though I agree with Aki's logic on why it was more important to have a good boyfriend than a good husband cos no one knows what will happen in the future anyway, at this point in time, I am unable to take that bold step onto the path that would be fraught with difficulties.

If we're meant to be, He would lay the path for us.

Thank you for loving me.

You Are An INFP

The Idealist You are creative with a great imagination, living in your own inner world.Open minded and accepting, you strive for harmony in your important relationships.It takes a long time for people to get to know you. You are hesitant to let people get close.But once you care for someone, you do everything you can to help them grow and develop. You would make an excellent writer, psychologist, or artist.

What's" Your Personality Type?

Of lemonade, grapes and apples

Today, he ate sweets for me. =)

傻姑

As I sat on a speedboat out of Male yesterday, the nickname from my JC1 choir days suddenly came to mind. Hence, the update at the sidebar. Back then, there was this craze over 《神鸼侠侣》 and we were naming ourselves after characters from the book/drama serial (yes, the one that Fann Wong and Christopher Lee acted in).

Yesterday, I was yet again reminded of how blessed I am. Someone made sure that I brought water to the Maldives. Someone made sure that I drank water and not get dehydrated. Someone helped to pull my trolley back halfway across Male to the jetty. Someone wanted to pay for my dinner. Someone said that he would always have a soft spot for me. Someone said that he would always be around.

Is it because I can't take care of myself and need people to take care of me? =P Nevertheless, I would like to thank all of you for being around and caring. *hugs*

暗号

Have you ever found yourself at the crossroads... and faced with two houses in front of you?

The one on your left looks like your dream house but there's something about it that leaves you wondering if it's warm or cold inside.

The one on your right... doesn't look much like your dream house but you know for sure that it's warm and cosy.

Which would you choose?

我想要的, 想做的, 你比誰都了
你想說的, 想給的, 我全都知道
未接來電, 沒留言, 一定是你孤單的想念
任何人都, 猜不到, 這是我們的暗號

他們猜, 隨便猜, 不重要
連上彼此的訊號, 才有個依靠
有太多人, 太多事, 夾在我們之間咆哮
雜訊太多訊號弱, 就連風吹都要干擾

可是你不想一直走在黑暗地下道
想吹風, 想自由, 想要一起手牽手
去看海, 繞世界流浪

我害怕你心碎沒人幫你擦眼淚
別管那是非, 只要我們感覺對
我害怕你心碎沒人幫你擦眼淚
別離開身邊, 擁有你我的世界才能完美

你說你想逃開鬆手, 愛太累愛得不自由
因為我給不起最簡單的承諾
你停止收訊號, 我開始搜尋不到
到底有誰知道, 是幾點鐘方向, 你才會收到暗號

Something about heart and yonder and fonder...

Rained all day in Male. Couldn't get to go to Gan because the flight was cancelled due to technical difficulties - after we waited at the airport for 3 hrs. Ended up having lunch, walk about and back in the hotel to chat online. =P

"Absences makes the heart grow fonder..."

What is my world view

Did this quiz in a semi-conscious state. Came down to a tie-breaker between which of the two was preferred:

1 Interpretation is an intrinsic feature of the fabric of the universe.

2 There is a spiritual side to being human.

I picked 1, which apparently made me a

Postmodernist. Postmodernism is the belief in complete open interpretation. You see the universe as a collection of information with varying ways of putting it together. There is no absolute truth for you; even the most hardened facts are open to interpretation. Meaning relies on context and even the language you use to describe things should be subject to analysis. Cultural Creative 63% Postmodernist 63% Existentialist 56% Modernist 38% Romanticist 38% Idealist 31% Fundamentalist 19% Materialist 13% What is Your World View? created with QuizFarm.com

Picking 2 would have made me a Cultural Creative, a member of probably the newest group to enter this realm. "You are a modern thinker who tends to shy away from organized religion but still feels as if there is something greater than ourselves. You are very spiritual, even if you are not religious. Life has a meaning outside of the rational."

1st Day in the Maldives

WOOHOO! Free internet access in the hotel lobby!

Shoulders aching. From carrying my heavy bag... even without my laptop! I miss certain people. =P

Hey Spinky, let Eva know that I'm away k?

Sounds perfect for me...

Someone who is quite guai because I am also quite guai
But also someone who is not super-religious or super-guai
Like, someone who is not hung-up about adhering to a strict moral code
But able to let loose and have fun and be slightly naughty every once in a while

Then, someone who is quite smart but not dao-dao artsy-fartsy smart
Who can also appreciate down-to-earth jokes and kopitiam food
Someone who is not super flamboyant or loud, but is also good humored and can be funny
And someone who is NICE

- Princess Di

Note to self:

Do not be impetuous.

Musings from the office on a lazy Sunday afternoon

Yup. In preparations for the trip tomorrow. I guess I really should have brought my laptop back on Fri but I didn't feel inspired to do so. =P

As I walked down the corridors of my office, I thought of how last year, was surprised to see Kon, who had just joined not too long ago, working in the office on a Saturday. Back then, I was trying to do my filing...

Was also surprised by 烧卖's call at about 11 am this morning. Had gained conscious at about 9 am, sent him a sms and went back to sleep since he hadn't reply. Our conversation was interrupted by someone whom I later confirmed to have called the long number. -_- But then again, I guess he didn't want to have another long teleconversation. =P Shortly after, got a "good morning" sms from 地毯.... Speaking of smses, I've finally deleted all of Bee's smses, including the one he sent on my graduation day last year.

My older cousin came by earlier and asked how's things going with Bee. I didn't see the need to lie, so I told him that we had broken up. My cousin then started giving me advice on how I should look out for someone who shares the same vision of the future as me...

What my vision of the future like? To be with someone who loves me as much as I love him? To have two kids and try my best not to turn them into spoilt brats or neglect them? I'ld like to think that I'm a simple person, who doesn't ask much but am I just thinking too simply? Is love sufficient to overcome it all?

Cheesecake!

Met the Pals for lunch, shopping and baking yesterday. Yes, we used the Hilton recipe cut out from Straits Times. If they hadn't proposed that we try baking it, I'll probably not do it by myself till December or so.

Realised that the recipe called for plain cream, but didn't indicate what it was for! But the cake turned out really well... =) I think it's all to the mixer's credit, to produce a cake so smooth! So tempted to buy another mixer - a proper one that won't die on me after being used thrice. =P

Since Prozac's birthday was 16 Aug, we decided to stick a candle and surprise him. So nice to be spontaneous every now and then. =) You may wish to refer to Little Miss Dreamer's blogfor photos and a more detailed description of Operation Cheesecake. =)

While the cake was baking, my love life was up for discussion again. =P The conclusion was that it was interesting enough to be turned into a script and submitted to Mediacorp. We also talked about whether, if the two were mutually exclusive, we would choose a good boyfriend or a good husband. Instinctively, I thought a good husband would be more important since I'ld be spending the rest of my life with him. But I also agree with Aki's thinking when she picked good boyfriend. If this guy can't even make a good boyfriend, how can you be sure that he would be a good husband?

The Five Love Languages

My primary love language is probably
Physical Touch
with a secondary love language being
Quality Time.

Complete set of results

Physical Touch:		8
Quality Time:		7
Words of Affirmation:		7
Acts of Service:		6
Receiving Gifts:		2

Information

Unhappiness in relationships, according to Dr. Gary Chapman, is often due to the fact that we speak different love languages. Sometimes we don't understand our partner's requirements, or even our own. We all have a "love tank" that needs to be filled in order for us to express love to others, but there are different means by which our tank can be filled, and there are different ways that we can express love to others.

Take the quiz

Fragility

Tears for one
Being with the second
Mind on a third
But heart... where art thou?

My past seems to have caught up with me, though I knew that it would, a week before I started work. Perhaps, as much as I thought I could be 洒脱, I can never truly be so. Perhaps, I care too much for making others happy, that I've left my own sense of happiness in their hands...

I need space from you too.

烧卖与地毯

Had lunch with 烧卖 and 地毯 today. Although 烧卖 had agreed to join us, he had second thoughts after 10 minutes and expressed preference to lunch with his book. Anyway, in the end, 地毯 beckoned him over.

烧卖 and 地毯 couldn't be more different - size, demeanour, personality... Yet they shared certain similarities. In the end, our lunch discussion primarily revolved around the ongoings in a certain training camp. =P

Sometimes I wonder if I'm just looking for trouble.

鼻涕虫

The conversation went (mebbe not the exact words cos I'm really forgetful these days)...

Bee: Do you know what's wrong?
Me: I'm going around breaking people's hearts.
Bee: Exactly.
.....
Bee: Do you know what's your problem? It's because you don't know what you want.

I know. And I don't mean to.

"Barbadoo"

How do people know that their partners are THE ONES that they wanna be with for the rest of their lives? Because they can imagine...

... growing old together?
... raising kids together?
... waking up to see their partners every morning?

Because they thank God for bringing these people into their lives?

I guess I've had all of those feelings at one point or another and I've come to realise that while such feelings may be sufficient to kick start a romance, it takes a lot more effort to keep it going for eternity. When I think I know what I had been looking for, it turns out that perhaps, I'd wanted more than that. Sometimes I don't trust myself anymore. Therefore, I am indecisive.

My last experience had taught me to be more patient but I guess I wasn't patient enough. Anyway, I'd reached the last chapter of that book. Time for me to take a break, enjoy the scenery before embarking on a new book, that would hopefully last me a lifetime. =P

In other news...

Haven't received my additional hello for this morning. Hmmm...

Who's that?

Was tweaking my blog yesterday (correcting a typo as pointed out by Spinky) when my brother said this. He couldn't recognise the girl in the blog header. =P

Saw a little girl in a PCF uniform on the train today. Short hair, cut very evenly and not layered. Wide eyed and in wonder of the world around her. Reminded me of when I was a little girl, when I aspired to be a scientist, or a pianist or a artist. Well... I jumped off the path to be a scientist, never got to learn to play the piano and art... I find that my sketchings are too restricted. When I do draw, I draw what I see as is. I often wish I could sketch more and every now and then, I'm tempted to buy myself a set of colour pencils (you know, the kind where it's a set of 128 and there are all sorts of funky colours), sit down somewhere and just draw. But I know that being the perfectionist that I am, I'ld probably be too engrossed in making something perfect, then to actually accept something random.

I look back and think about how simply I used to think:

1. Go to a good Sec school (check)
2. Go to a good JC (check)
3. Get a decent degree (check)
4. Find a stable job (check - though I'm not sure how long I can last in this job.=P)
5. Meet the man of my dreams (work in progress)
6. Settle down (dependent on item 5 above)
7. Have two or four kids (ditto)
   [Note: Yes, even numbers, because it's easier for kids to play games in even numbers. Although I suppose the preference is two because of the difficulties of raising four kids and that maybe I'll get tired after three. =P]

Back then, I didn't know what hyprocisy and heart ache were. I remember that up to university, I left people the impression that I was a carefree girl. Although I think that my desire to be carefree had churned out problems of its own. =P

The path of getting to where I am today has been more difficult that I had imagined it to be when I was five. But I constantly remind myself that my path has been a much smoother one compared to some others out there. I'm lucky to have the support of my family (though we don't really express ourselves. =P), the Pals and all you guys out there who have made a difference to my life in one way or another.

Thanks.

All time favourite chinese song

思念是一种很玄的东西
如影 随行
无声又无息 出没在心底
转眼 吞没我在寂寞里
我无力抗拒 特别是夜里
哦 想你到无法呼吸
恨不能立即 朝你狂奔去
大声的告诉你

我愿意为你 我愿意为你
我愿意为你 忘记我姓名
就算多一秒 停留在你怀里
失去世界也不可惜
我愿意为你 我愿意为你
我愿意为你 被放逐天际
只要你真心 拿爱与我回应
(我)什么都愿意
什么都愿意为你

Photos!

I've uploaded long-awaited photos on my new Webshots homepage, which you can access here or click on the link at the sidebar, right below "back on the shelf". =P

Visit the site to view photos of:

• Commencement 2005


• Graduation photo-taking outing


• New Delhi, Sep 2005


• Maldives, Oct 2005


• Bhutan, Feb 2006


• Sri Lanka, Apr 2006

Revamped my blog.

Ta da! First attempt at personalising my blog. Quite pleased with myself. =) Yellow text does go quite well on various colours. =P At the very least, I can now surf my blog using IE and not have to use Opera (which distorts the alignment).

Just a simple design... maybe one of these days will scan in something that i sketched as a background.

4-5, 5-6, 6-7, ...

Had lunch w YT the other day. I enjoy talking to YT cos he's always so insightful and gives practical advice. Felt quite motivated to revamp my wardrobe after that. Yes, that long overdue task. I think my sister would be pleased. Given the time that has freed up now, I guess I shall make an appointment with my sister to go pamper myself (or her, since I'll probably end up buying stuff that she likes. =P)

The recent ongoings... made me realised that I leave a pretty good first impression on people. =) I never realised that there were people around that actually noticed me.

By chance, I came across an article in "Duet" (yes, the SDU magazine) yesterday, talking about dating traps. One of which was that people shouldn't think that there is only one soul mate for them out there. I guess it makes me think twice about my outlook on dating. There really are many nice guys out there who would say that they care about you. You know that they aren't lying but how do you know who's really The One for you?

Something There

[Belle:]
There's something sweet
And almost kind
But he was mean and he was coarse and unrefined
And now he's dear
And so I'm sure
I wonder why I didn't see it there before

[Beast:]
She glanced this way
I thought I saw
And when we touched she didn't shudder at my paw
No it can't be
I'll just ignore
But then she's never looked at me that way before

[Belle:]
New and a bit alarming
Who'd have ever thought that this could be?
True that he's no Prince Charming
But there's something in him that I simply didn't see

[Lumiere:] Well, who'd have thought?
[Mrs Potts:] Well, bless my soul
[Cogsworth:] Well, who'd have known?
[Mrs Potts:] Well, who indeed?
[Lumiere:] And who'd have guessed they'd come together on their own?
[Mrs Potts:] It's so peculiar. Wait and see
[Lumiere and Cogsworth:] We'll wait and see
[All three:] A few days more
There may be something there that wasn't there before
[Cogsworth:] You know, perhaps there's something there that wasn't
there before
[Mrs Potts:] There may be something there that wasn't there before

"Everything that love means can be expressed in a kiss."

From the Nestle website:

"Each Baci , which means "kisses" in Italian, with its creamy dark chocolate and rich hazelnut center, comes wrapped in a poetic love note in four languages describing the course of love — a true gesture of romance."

Relieved

I haven't felt so relieved after weeks of confusion. I guess this confusion might come back to me after a while, but i'm just happy right now nonetheless.

Disney characters and I

Pluto with a Chinese cap!



Mickey and I [Note: no photos with Minnie cos nothing can top that photo w Aki and Spinky last year. =)]



"Oh bother..." Pooh and I...

Hong Kong Disneyland

Disneyland by night...

Panoramic Views from the Peak

The Peak

As the sun sets...



Evening and Night shots of Central...

Back in Singapore

Expect photos to be up by the end of the week. Choir Pals would probably get to see them this Sat... =)

2nd day in HK

Went to church yesterday morning. Somewhat similar to Trinity and it was a good experience. First time I've been to a church overseas (as in sit in a service), and first time I've been to another church (i.e. not Trinity) since last year.

After that, we went to Causeway Bay and had dim sum *again* (but I'm not complaining). Met Honey Bee's primary school friend who's a Hong Konger. Quite a nice chap, very friendly. While he and Honey Bee caught up over lunch, Serene (our hostess) and I went shopping. I'm quite pathetic at shopping - bought a zara tee, a Little Twin Stars fan and wrapping paper (why? cos it's cute =P). Bumped into Honey Bee and Friend at Sogo - Why? Cos they were looking for the elusive perfect Hello Kitty soft toy. =P He couldn't find one that I liked though, despite his Friend's best efforts to track down shops that sold Hello Kitty. =P After thatn, we went to eat 炖奶. SO NICE! I love dairy products and the 炖奶 was so smooth and yummy!

In the evening, we went to the Peak. Took a video of the tram ride but if I run out of space on my SD card, will have to delete it (should have brought the camera cable). We took photos of the sunset, ate Mcwings, bought Kittybricks (Hello Kitty in Bearbricks format!) at Macdonalds, took some evening shots of Hong Kong too. Foggy though... =/ After that, we had dinner with our hosts and Friend at Causeway Bay.

We'll be going to Disneyland later. Praying for good weather and a small crowd. Btw, scalded my tongue on the first night and I think it's developed some small ulcers. =/ Hope they heal soon and don't affect my appetite. =P

I am a Horse.

Versatile, powerful, and true, you have quite a reputation for hard work and a certain unbridled spirit. Many look up to you as an example of what people can really become, though somewhere deep down, you admit to feeling a little bit broken. You hate racing, but are still exceptionally good at it. Beware broken legs, dog food, and glue. If your name is Ed, you do a surprising amount of talking.


Take the Animal Quiz at the Blue Pyramid.

1st 24 hrs in HK

Touched down last night at about this time. Received by Honey Bee's friend at the Hong Kong Station, dropped our stuff and went for dinner. The food was great!

Had dim sum today at City Hall and walked from Tsim Sha Tsui to Mong Kok. If only it wasn't raining so hard. Will cut down on sms tomorrow.

Chanal's Birthday Celebrations

Of course he didn't know it when he came to meet us for dinner that day. We even dragged Nic out. =P

Brought him to Rouge where we brought out a small cheesecake. =)

Think everyone enjoyed themselves; don't think I've ever been out this late on a Monday b4. =P

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

I'm a White Knight...

Your distinct personality, The White Knight, might be found in most of the thriving kingdoms of the time. Don Quixote was a White Knight as was Joan of Arc, the Lone Ranger and Crusader Rabbit. As a White Knight you expect nothing in return for your good deeds. You are one of the true "Givers" of the world. You are the anonymous philanthropist who shares your wealth, your time and your life with others. To give, is its own reward and as a White Knight you seek no other. On the positive side you are merciful, sympathetic, helpful, giving and heroic. On the negative side you may be impulsively decisive, sentimental and misdirected. Interestingly, your preference is just as applicable in today's corporate kingdoms.

Try this at: http://www.cmi-lmi.com/kingdom.html

The Country Quiz

You're France!

Most people think you're snobby, but it's really just that you're better than everyone else. At least you're more loyal to the real language, the fine arts, and the fine wines than anyone else.
You aren't worth beans in a fight, unless you're really short, but you're so good at other things that it usually doesn't matter. Some of your finest works were intended to be short-term projects.

Take the Country Quiz at the Blue Pyramid

Love ya.

问世间情为何物？ 只叫人生死相许.

Inline skating or Dancing?

Got a pair of inline skates recently. Feel tempted to buy dancing shoes for dance class though. =P But doing so requires an investment of sorts, because I don't know how long I'ld last in dance class. And I shouldn't waste the investment on the skates.

Both require time and effort to learn them well. It'll be difficult to apportion time between the two and decide which I like better. =P

ARGH

Yet another agency has performed a feat accompli on me. *bang head on the table* Don't they know that they should go through the Desks or at least alert the Desks BEFORE they ask the Principals?

Working in the office today. Hoping to clear my overdue filenotes.

Karaoke...

Went karaoke last night... was more fun than I would have expected cos wasn't sure initially how many people would show up. =P

Been staying up late all week. Actually woke up at 10+, went back to sleep and finally dragged myself out of bed half an hour ago. ^ ^ Gonna rain soon... sigh...

I'm a lousy event planner.

Thank goodness I'm only the Secretary for D&D this year.

"If you're fat, we can't be friends."

So says the Princess.

How now, brown cow?

Today, i got a few things off my chest. Felt relieved after we cleared the air. And i learned a few things that had happened around me over the last year but i never knew. The question now is, how do we progress from here?

Checking in?

Had to drop a cd off at Hyatt after work just now.

Bumped into Terky on the van and he offered to walk with me from the van drop-off to Hyatt. When we got to Hyatt, the natural instinct was to go up to the reception to confirm that the guest who was suppose to receive the cd did indeed stay there.

So we walked up to the counter, and the guy said, "Checking in?" Sheesh.

-------

On other matters, had lunch with my course participants today. Alicia complained that although she thinks I need to attend more of such meals and fatten up, she would rather I lunch with the office folks today because only 3 of them were going for lunch together.

So I sat at the same table as David. Always like going to lunches with David because he's funny and entertains the guests. The lunch came with a simple dessert buffet. So typical me, having the sweet tooth, tried the mango mousse cake, strawberry mousse and two slices of fruits. And you know what he did? He dumped half of his tiramisu and cheese cake - two of the most sinful desserts - onto my plate and told the participants that I could afford to gain more weight. -_-

So here goes...

i blame you.

Take bigger steps

Teacher commented that I need to take bigger steps so that I can land on steps without losing my balance. Wonder if it looks very un-graceful. Need to find a mirror in a big room that I can practice in front of. Hmmm...

finally twisted one cherry stalk after 10 min.

A conversation the other night went...

I: You haven't met the right person to make you change your mind yet.

Friend: I haven't met the person who won't ask me to change my mind.

We were talking about relationships and changes;  I was trying to convince the Friend that being in a relationship with SOMEONE would require One to make certain changes to One's lifestyle, while the Friend was convinced that THE ONE should ideally be someone who doesn't ask One to change One's lifestyle.  The Friend also talked about how patience was important if SOMEONE wanted to see the changes happen. And that the Friend was fundamentally flawed.

How should it be? To change or to expect THE ONE to accept you for who you are? Since last year, changes have been ongoing, whether I like it or not...  But it never seems enough, does it?  I am who I am.  Nobody's perfect.  Everyone has flaws.  So is it that my flaw(s) is/are unacceptable? What is expected of me? Am I to keep changing myself to match what is expected of me?  Then that really wouldn't be me anymore, would it?

I hate to say it, but the Friend's logic seems to be more right than mine.  

Quiet Day Ahead

Woke up with the strangest dream.

Haven't been home the whole day in a long time.  Weird feeling.  

In the midst of doing laundry...  Washing my socks too.  Long overdue.  =P

OH! and today's ST Lifestyle published the recipe for Hilton's famous cheesecake! But so difficult! How am I suppose to flip the cake over to see if it's evenly browned on both sides and put it back into the cake mould?

Came across the quiz on someone's blog...

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who have a split personality - cold as ice on the outside but hot as fire in the heart. In love, you feel the most alive when your partner is patient and never willing to give up on you. You'd like to your lover to think you are flexible and ready for anything! You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please. Your ideal relationship is traditional. Without saying anything, both of you communicate with your hearts. Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment. You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred. In this moment, you think of love as something you don't need. You just feel like flirting around and playing right now.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

How true is this?

Looking back

My blog is close to two years old now.  It started cos of Prozac - he started a blog and soon after, everyone in the gang had one.  

Wonder if people read their old entries? Honey Bee says that I've grown lots since I started my blog.  

Reading the old entries of a friend's.  and i realised that some things never change.

Assuming that you were talking abt me...

No, I wasn't bored out of my skull. I had an interesting conversation too... and I'm glad that you didn't find me too naggy. haha... Not expecting miracles but am hoping that you'ld cut down on some of your "unhealthy" habits soon.

I almost choked on Fresh N White

Was brushing my teeth when EAR called.

Today, my fren in Tokyo msned me early in the morning. He was feeling terrible. He may be in /on the brink of slipping into depression. His girlfriend of a year confessed last month that she liked someone else. Could feel how crushed he was... =( Really felt like flying over there to comfort him. Hope that things will get better for him and that he would be able to move on in the event that...

What do you do when the one that you think to be THE ONE tells you that he/she is in love with someone else? How would you cope? Can't imagine.

On a happier note, it's fun to dance with your eyes closed. But the Teacher says I'm too rigid. Wonder if it's cos of my heels...

To move on, or not to move on

My colleague was saying that after you've worked in the public sector for a while, it'll feel so comfortable that you wouldn't want to move to the private sector. Furthermore, by then, you would have no value-add to the private sector.

Princess Di said that if i quit, she wouldn't stay too long after that. Just goes to show how important the people around the workplace are. There's great rapport among my colleagues of equal rank and the guys from my batch. And i'm wondering if i should invest in a pair of dancing shoes. Cos i know i'ld be too lazy to learn outside of my workplace. =P

Feel quite accomplished.  Blogging more regularly now. =)

waltzing around

points to remember:

• arms cannot be like chicken wings
• straight, lean back
• legs must be flexible...
• posture! posture! posture!

怒气冲天

Where i've been...

plucked the url off Princess Di's website:



create your own visited country map

For Choir trips
Austria
France
Germany
Luxembourg
UK

For Work
Malaysia (KL)
Thailand (BKK)
Bhutan
India (ND)
Maldives
Sri Lanka
Qatar
UAE (Dubai - transited at airport for total of 5hrs)

For holidays!
Japan
Malaysia (Genting Highlands, Malacca)

4th of July

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, PRINCESS DI!

One week on

It always feels weird a week after a big party. Cos right after that, life goes back to normal - u slave at work all day. When the next weekend, there seems like a vacumn where your previous weekend was.

It's a really hot day... should be going swimming. Anyone for Wild Wild Wet?

Sleepy

Waiting for an email before I can send out another email...

So tired. Don't know how I'm going to survive cell later. *yawn*

I've lost weight, but not at where I desire the most.

Losing patience

I've been praying for patience but don't think it's working.

The work environment is really trying my patience. Well, not just mine, even my next door neighbour who has survived 10 yrs in this place is finding that she's running low on steam. How do we work with someone who is so stubborn that he thinks the whole world revolves around him?

Just heard that my friend is making her 2nd job change. i.e. she's moving on to her 3rd job. an average person changes job seven times in a lifetime...

one day, when I find that I have no patience left to face this job, that's when I'll make my move too.

reminiscence

Honey Bee was telling me abt how he read my old posts and found that i've changed a lot since i started work...

Came across this post....
yesterday i met a guy who knows what he wants. He wanted to do Med but didn't get in on his first try. So he got an Engineering degree instead THEN apply for Med (which he got). And he wants to go into research or child psychology... wow... do guys at 27 always know what they want? like my other 27 yr old friend... actually i think he's 28 this year. Mebbe cos they have already "wasted" a couple of years in their lives so they know better. Will i end up going in circles for a couple of years too, before i finally figure out what i want? 

Kind of applicable to me now.

sickening

I can't believe HE went back on his word TWICE today. HE was so desperate and clean forgot what he said. Is the working world full of people like that?!

2nd post in 1 day in a long time!

I imagine if I ran around the house, i'ld hear my tummy swishing. which is not as bad as yesterday. yesterday it was swishing and rumbling even when i was sitting still.

I guess it's a gastric attack that wasn't treated properly at the first instance. Missed lunch on sat cos I was baking a cake while my dad had his third helping of breakfast, which btw, I think I didn't eat any of. But I'm pretty sure I must have eaten something else that morning... just can't remember what it was. =P

Missed Disa's farewell lunch today! Darn... It'll be harder to meet her next time when she moves to SubCourts becomes a DJ...

I have a feeling this won't be the last post of the day.

there's a virus in my room

My sis is still recovering from fever. I think i'm more or less done with fever but my stomach still feels unsettled. what does unsettled mean? it's not as painful as cramps but there's this nagging discomfort. Don't know if I should go and see the doc again. Saw him two nights in a row already. Hope I feel better after lunch.

Sick

Why? Possibly cos:

1. sis spread to me
2. lack of rest
3. dehydration
4. ran in the rain
5. didn't have a proper diet
6. stressed out by boss

Finally got a MC from my family doctor! at 38.3 deg C, which Doc said was very high...

Hisk's birthday celebrations

Things turned out quite well. =)

Despite the party being planned in about three days, managed to get abt half the FSBP to go for the chalet. Thanks to the following for turning up:

Harold, ZS, Josh, Nelson, Eirliani, Terk, Adeline, Yeen Teck, Ken, WJ, Denise, Ding, Diana, Wilson and Hisk's fren Merv.

Quick recap of what we went thru:

• it started pouring when i got ther so poor harold n ZS had to dash in in the rain. =P



• "big 2" w ZS and Harold: ZS was so lucky! only lost once...



• mahjong: "5 of balls... 5 of bamboos"



• watching Singapore Idol: can't believe we actually sat thru the whole show!



• "7 deadly sins": was a nightmare trying to sort out the rules! at abt that time when Ken and Josh were suppose to act out their "sins", the birthday boy came...



• the ice wine was great! the rest of the wine... eh... =P



• at some pt in time, YT jiggled his gr*** in front of WJ.



• birthday cake: a pity it lost its "alignment". prob happened while i was looking for a taxi to go to the chalet. we prepared the candles while the birthday boy went out for a smoke, turned off the lights and sang him a birthday song. wonder if he was surprised? anyway, poor adeline! almost got her fingers cut off trying to remove the candles!



• thanks to victor, we gotta play twister! first time i played that! so fun! and YT was so good at manouvering his way!



• soccer match: watched Germany vs Poland on Indonesia channel. =P that Ding ah! just went out the door, waved bye and went home! never say bye to everyone else!



• stupid game: decided to test the game tt the pals played on NYE one yr. i think everyone wasn't too gamed at first cos it's a brainless game with no aim but i think to the end, everyone took to it. =P took so many photos of funny poses! and having someone's head resting on your thigh is the ultimate tickle!



• the birthday boy was in a dictatorial mood and kept commanding ppl ard. after most ppl left, he smoked 4 cigarettes, became a beached whale and flopped off the bed. too bad we didn't manage to capture it on the video!



• we went to stroll on the beach too... and the birthday boy climbed over the gate. can't believe he did that. can't believe he managed to do that. =P



• almost fell asleep on the beach and on the way back, the birthday boy was flogging me like the horse cos of the towels i was carrying. -____-



• sleep! the birthday boy fell asleep so fast! and produced a thunderous symphony. =P



• when i woke up, i realised that i had "surround sound", but as Harold put it, the right speaker wasn't functioning as well as the left. LOL



• Josh accidentally locked the toilet door after he used it and we had to go to the main lobby to use the washroom. luckily the chalet we booked was near the lobby... was raining so heavily this morning and was scared that couldn't get home in the rain.



• talking abt ppl ard the office: we sure have lots of peculiar colleagues...



• was so thankful that the SBS bus came quite quickly! cos if we had missed it, would have to wait another 20 min...



• breakfast was disappointing!

everyone else went home by cab after that while i dozed off on the bus. =P Luckily, didn't miss my bus stop. was so stoned that i slept 5 hrs in the noon...

well... to sum up, hope that everyone had fun, esp the birthday "once-i-was-hunky,-now-i-am-chunky" "beached whale" boy. =P he wasn't really himself, or mebbe cos never really saw him around other his frens before? =/

anyway, may all your dreams and wishes come true!

One year on...

It's been a year since I started work. Pondering whether I should move on from this place, if I'll be able to survive the job. Eye bags getting bigger, eyes getting smaller. ARGH!

Thinking about going back to research but I'm doubtful if I can still catch up. And i'm such a blur klutz - sure end up contaminating samples. =P

On a happier note, joined waltz classes at work on Monday. Being swept off your feet is so fun! I think the company matters too - that the class isn't just for the older staff like most ppl think it is and the class is super on; two practice sessions every week on top of the class. Can't wait till they start Tango classes, but then again, will I still be here when they intro Tango?

Getting fat

had buffet on fri night and yesterday noon and just had a 6-course dinner. =P

went out w 3 sec sch frens on fri night. one was talking about buying condos le... wah... then the four of us went arcade to play. didn't really expect to play but shooting games really quite fun! haha... and played daytona too! so long never play le. lucky wasn't last. hehe. also got mario karts!

coming to a yr at work le... should do a proper review of what i have/not accomplished...

A revival

Would appear as if my blog has revived. =P

Had lunch with a friend from my NUS days yesterday. Hadn't seen him in 2 years although we would chat online occasionally. Made me realise that I really should discipline myself to keep in touch with my friends on a regular basis.

Yesterday, someone commented that some ppl get so involved with their bf/gf that they don't really bother with their friends anymore. I hope I'm not like that, although I wonder if I would arrange to meet these friends more frequently if I wasn't attached.

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Yesterday's sermon was about doing community work. The pastor quoted several verses from the Bible about how we should help the poor and stand up for them:

Psalm 103:8
Isaiah 41:17
Deuteronomy 15:7-11, 14-15, 17-22
Proverbs 14:31, 19:17, 21:13, 31:8-9
Acts 2:44, 4:34, 11:28

If you don't have a Bible, you can read the verses off the internet.

The pastor also read testimonials of the "poor" - defined as those who were in pain, in need or under-privileged... The experience was quite stirring. The pastor ended with a call to ask those who wanted to commit at that instance to help the poor when the opportunity arises. I was tempted to stand but held back by thoughts of how busy I was and would be. Although the pastor had said that busyness should not be an excuse, I couldn't help but let it pull me back. But the sermon definitely made me realise that I could do more to help others.

1 John 3:18
"Dear children, let us not love with words or tongue but with actions and in truth."

Chihuahua

Chihuahua
No bones about it, you're an energetic, devoted Chihuahua. For your breed, size definitely doesn't matter. After all, sometimes the best things (diamonds, car keys, Godiva truffles) come in small packages. Honest and straightforward, you're never afraid to speak up for what you believe in, especially if it's a cause near and dear to your heart. Having such a passionate personality can come with a few drawbacks, though. You can be moody at times, and people often find it hard to live up to your high standards. But once you make a friend, it's for life. Saucy and intense, your energy and unfailing loyalty make you a great companion. Woof!

Drained

that's me. feel so drained at work. cos of the never-ending stream. someone asked me when my next tour would be. i wonder...

really... a new post!

Got back from Sri Lanka last weekend. Is having more than one blog the rage these days? haven't been able to update my blog in Sri Lanka cos the programme was kind of tight... Sleepy...

another snippet of my life...

yesterday, SRCS' Col Lim said I'm very different from when we first met in July... and that he always tell ppl how he was more senior than me but acted as my slave in the Maldives, helping me lug my laptop everywhere. =P

I suppose it's a change for the better cos he says he only says good things about me. Made me feel really blessed cos there are people like him and Iris around at work who make u feel like the working world isn't that bad.

The boss is going away and a new boss is coming in. Wonder if he'll realise that my portfolio keeps expanding and try and get another FSO in to help out?

A new post!

Back from Bhutan... check this out while I come up with the next post:
http://kevan.org/johari?name=Greencraft.

I'm only 14! haha...

You Are 14 Years Old

13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world.

What Age Do You Act?

Happy boxing day!

KTV with the gang yesterday was absolutely crazy! didn't know singing while standing up could be so much more fun than while sitting down. =P

Honey Bee gave a Mont Blanc cardholder for x'mas... =) although i was eyeing a braun buffel one (to match the wallet which i would eventually get. wonder if braun buffel got extra discount during post-x'mas period?) And got a few new small bags - including 2 Naraya ones... what a coincidence. =P

Met Honey Bee's close frens today for x'mas dinner. his fren's baby is so cute! there's just something about babies... must be the way they look at everything so wide-eyed and innocently. oh yar... kenna grilled too. =P and played scrabble on an ancient travel set! pretty good games except that everyone was quite competitive and took a long time to come up with words.

Didn't catch the reunion carol session this year. 1st time in 7 years that i haven't done so. means i haven't met Nelly Belly at all this year! kind of miss carolling... "Pa da da da..."

Merry Christmas!

What colour heart do you have?

Your Heart Is Pink

In relationships, you like to play innocent - even though you aren't. Each time you fall in love, it's like falling for the first time. Your flirting style: Coy Your lucky first date: Picnic in the park Your dream lover: Is both caring and dominant What you bring to relationships: Romance

What Color Heart Do You Have?

Revived!

Finally a new post. =P

updates:
- got my braces removed
- got my retainers on
- got my first credit card

Amongst these, visited honey bee's relatives in M'sia. was quite spontaneous but nice. got to noe honey bee's family better and vice versa. (i hope - at least honey bee's mum's making an effort to remember my name now. =P) First time in a small town in M'sia and it's technically the 4th place i've visited in M'sia - after Malacca, Genting and JB. And i still haven't visited KL. =P

In other news, may be travelling a lot more in the next two months. spending valentine's day in overseas with the Boss. which isn't that bad except that the place we're gg is expected to be really cold.

Gotta do duty tmr... sigh... at least managed to get half day on Tues - X'MAS SHOPPING!!!

Last 4 digits of my HP number struck starter prize!

refer to my "Thanks!" post.

While I was at Macs, Prog Booklet I/C smsed me. Noting that I was lucky that day, he requested for 6 random numbers between 1 and 45. Told him to buy my birthday or HP number.

1 hr ago: "Eh. the last 4 digits of your handphone won starter le. but i never buy! T_T"

he could have won $2.5k with just $10. =P

Birthday Presents!

Thanks!

I'ld like to thank the following for their well wishes today (in chrono order):

1. ultimate LSR fan
2. Peo
3. Xinyi
4. VOC
5. Aki
6. Prog booklet I/C
7. Vin
8. Spinky
9. GZai
10. Mel
11. Prozac

The Honey Bee was so sweet last nite! First we went his house to pick up the car n he ordered me to sit at the tv while he was busying himself in the kitchen. then we went Balestier for Bak Ku Teh... and he drove to a "mystery spot" where he pulled out a tiramisu and my birthday present - a new hp!!! Thanks dear!

Then we went Macs to play Scrabbs... Quite lucky... first word used up all 7 tiles. =P Eh I/C, let me know if u strike toto. =P

Gonna watch movie later... =) third birthday in a row that i've been watching movies on my birthday (Kill Bill Vol 1 on 21st b-day, PD2 on 22nd)

On leave

sigh... claim got rejected. gotta go thru the trad chinese calculator...

took leave to sleep in this morning and give tuition in the noon. =P but turns out that should have gone to office cos got a few things to settle. gotta start doing appraisal too.

birthday's coming up... gonna be older again. Can i express my preference for a watch for my birthday? =P

Me and Princess Di!

Here we are at MFA's D&D last fri... =)

And here's a photo of me in Maldives!

changed status

The honey bee says that my profile not up to date so made some slight changes to it. =P

Finally an update!

Maldives was pretty... but hectic... lots of follow-up to do. sigh. really should go about to uploading photos. =P

Looking forward to mtg the gang on sat... =) although i think i'll be grilled. hmmm...

my stitching project gg well. should finish before my target date.

Me and KJ Wong

Back from India!

India was pretty fun... didn't have much time to shop but there wasn't much to shop for anyway. didn't take many photos but here's one with me and Karaoke Jockey Wong at South Block.

Weekly update

Really tired this week. even more tired than last week. although last week had more work to do, this week's work was more urgent and tricky.

Going to India in 1 week's time! heard the weather there is very hot this season... hopefully don't need to bring suit. Hoping that they'll put the taj mahal back into the programme but chances are, they prob won't lar. oh well...

the stitching is gg pretty well... abt 50% done! think i should be able to finish it soon... then mebbe will go back to my old routine of internet, internet, internet. =P haven't played neopets in a while. wonder if sims 2's latest expansion has been released?

finally! an update!

yeah... finally decided to blog again.

been busy... trying to sort out stuff and all. managed to file away all my impt stuff!

i think my stitching, 20% done? taking some shape at least... =)

tmr starting course liao! darn. gonna be even busier. suppose to do peer review at the end of the course.

given up on sims 2 liao... till NIGHTLIFE is released. brings the game to a new level! can't wait!

i don't blog frequently enough

Since starting work, blog a lot less. cos every night come home, work on my hobby... then cannot be bothered to go online.

went out w the gang today... =) took some really nice photos! too bad aki and spinky not online now. otherwise can get from them liao.

we decided to meet up regularly every month - 2nd or 3rd saturday of the month. and we'll rotate who organises the outing by alphabetical order. first one up was suppose to be urnice who would organise KTV this weekend. but she's gonna be bz so Vin volunteered to coordinate it. so long never go KTV liao!

DHS alumni dinner on 17th Sept! Who's going?

The Sonnet

Deliberate Gentle Love Dreamer (DGLDf)

Romantic, hopeful, and composed. You are the Sonnet. Get it? Composed?

Sonnets want Love and have high ideals about it. They're conscientious people, caring & careful. You yourself have deep convictions, and you devote a lot of thought to romance and what it should be. This will frighten away most potential mates, but that's okay, because you're very choosy with your affections anyway. You'd absolutely refuse to date someone dumber than you, for instance.

Lovers who share your idealized perspective, or who are at least willing to totally throw themselves into a relationship, will be very, very happy with you. And you with them. You're already selfless and compassionate, and with the right partner, there's no doubt you can be sensual, even adventurously so.

You probably have lots of female friends, and they have a special soft spot for you. Babies do, too, at the tippy-top of their baby skulls.

ALWAYS AVOID: The 5-Night Stand, The False Messiah, The Hornivore, The Last Man on Earth

CONSIDER: The Loverboy

http://www.okcupid.com/oktest

Busy Bee

i've been so busy that i haven't really had a chance to talk to my sis all week. =P not even sure when she's coming back from Taiwan. Hope she's enjoying herself...

work is starting to pile up liao. every day will get calls to ask me so how is this coming along, how is that coming along... thank goodness for national day hols next week!

today gonna go see fireworks w the Gang! or at least whoever is free. =P we were suppose to go take photos but then yesterday, i thot gonna be postponed so i arranged to meet another fren... now gonna miss shopping with the Gang! darn. hopefully can get to city hall area in time later.

sleepy...