"imagine me doing a chicken little dance"

should always remember that when i feel like sighing. =P

Angels shouldn't keep sighing

The drama serial was at a scene where this woman professed her love for her good friend and pleaded with him not to leave her. He told her that maybe she didn't really love him, and that maybe she only thought she loved him cos the feelings that she put in were not reciprocated.

I've felt that way before. Had a crush on someone and thought that maybe I really liked him and was crushed that he didn't reciprocate it. Some time later, when that someone suggested that we could give things a try, I realised that I didn't really like him after all.

As an aside, Princess said today that she liked me less now cos I've put on weight. *sob*

Angels should be happy... laughing and smiling and feeling joyous.

Head aches

Probably from insufficient sleep. Or possibly the on/off flu I've had the whole day. Shall sleep early tonight.

Drove my sis away from the PC to see if some friends whom I needed to talk to were online. Some weren't; the ones who were... don't seem to be interested in chatting. Oh well.

Visited my pregnant former labmate today. =) So happy for her... Apparently, a name that had been tossed up were "PPT" as in PupPyTail (not "PowerPoinT" or "PreciPiTate") cos the baby will arrive in this world at the end of the Doggy Year (hence the name "Puppytail"). However, the couple decided that their daughter would be named Phoebe (after "Phoebe" in Friends) cos they still wanted a "P" name. =)

We are who we think.

Chocolate Milk and Milk Chocolate

I meant Chocolate Milk and White Chocolate actually. =P

In commemoration of Delhi...

Just got this from Disa... =)

"Attached" Syndrome

I've been meaning to blog about this topic for some time.

A week ago, a friend of mine blogged about how almost every girl she knew had at some point in time made a piece of handicraft for their boyfriends and pondered if girls are just trying to highlight our femininity or whether it is our innate ability to "turn" feminine when we are attached.

I'm one of those girls who make stuff for friends. I guess always feel that the personal touch would have a greater effect. Also cos in those days when I didn't get much pocket money, making things was always the cheaper option. =P Of course, each object came with a message... Like the roses for the choir pals that mark every christmas... (did i make any last year? memory failing me le... =P ) or the ez-link cards to commemorate 10 years of friendship... Or the cookies and cakes...

I hate baking for myself because although I enjoy baking nice stuff, it's meaningless when there's no one to share your joy in eating them. Therefore, I only bake when it's for someone else. And since the dear sister dislikes the cakes that I bake, the only cake that i bake regularly (or at least try to) is cheesecake for Godma. I'ld usually bake cookies.

I guess for me, baking stuff for the people that you love and the people around them makes me happy. Applies to making crafts too. It's nice to know that people appreciate the effort that you put into making something for them. And if its for that extra special guy, then it just makes me feel extra happy. =P

And when you meet someone who wouldn't be able to appreciate the hard work that you put into honing your baking skills (from failing in sec 2 home economics class to today's decent cookies), you can't help but feel a bit disappointed I guess.

Tired.

Surfing@Citylink. Feet are aching. Allowed to take day off tomorrow. Ton of work waiting to be settled. Will the boss let me? Should I? *yawn*

Am I just looking for someone who is there when I need him and not there when don't?

Sweet

The taste of the 3 or 4 pcs of chocolates that I ate today.

The taste of the ice cream last Saturday.

The word that most people seem to use to describe me with. I think I've actually used it on myself... in JC 1 when Mr Goh told us to add an adjective to our names. =P Sometimes I wonder if my "sweet" demeanour is just a front...

It's been a year since Delhi. To the 12th FSBP, Happy Delhi Anniversary! 5 (including Disa) have left us for greener pastures. To the survivors, thanks for hanging around. =)

Oh... And found out today that I'm a size 35 for Raoul shirts, i.e. can't fit, since they only have even sizes... =P

两情若是久长时, 又岂在朝朝暮暮

Of ribs and *sniff sniff* vinegar

Came across a poster on "occupational stress" at work today. After taking a quick glance at the list, I concluded that I'm probably suffering from that. Been so forgetful recently...

As I was going home today, was suddenly hit by an exceptionally strong thought. Wonder why...

Visiting a fellow mouse-killer this weekend... Looking forward to tasting vinegared pig trotters next year. =)

Made a new friend today. =)

If I was strict about the friends classification system, an acquaintance who was bordering friend was promoted to friend status today. =) Funny how it happened though. Out of boredom. Haha...

He offered me some advice and reminded me that one doesn't need to go out with someone else on "single dates" to get to know one another better. That somethings can't be changed, so people need to find a comfortable acceptance level. To take time to know someone.

Ice cream wasn't the only thing that melted today.

Air Fresheners

You know those air fresheners that people spray their washrooms with? Was in the cubicle in the washroom just now when i heard the distinct "pish! pish! pish!"sound of violent spraying outside. When I stepped out of the cubicle, I was greeted with the choking smell of air freshener. The toilet wasn't even stinky before. Sheesh.

Have you ever felt heavy hearted but unable to cry?

"enjoy your weekend!" -> "what weekend?"

According to dictionary.reference.com, the word "miss" has 14 definitions. Among which when it is used as a verb with an object, it could mean one of two things:

• to fail to encounter, meet, catch, etc.
• to regret the absence or loss of.
  

The two are slightly different - regret hints of emotional attachment...

When I "miss" someone, does it mean that i'm just commenting that i failed to "encounter, meet, catch, etc" that person, or is it that i "regret the absence" of that person?

Gonna be working the weekend. sigh.

My language bar doesn't work.

Switched to beta Blogger the other day. After which, the Chinese text in my sidebar became gibberish and my friends couldn't comment. Sigh...

Today's lunch stirred up some old memories... Memories of how we always wanted to do certain things but never got to do so. We always thought, "we'll do that next time" but we never did. Or maybe it's my fault. Just like how I've been meaning to give my godparents a treat for ages and have not done so to date. =P

"The chance will come" - it's one of those phrases that one says all the time but does the chance ever come? Sometimes, if you'd missed the chance, would it come by again?

Sometimes, as one chance slips by, another of the opposite nature appears... Coincidence or destined? For one or for both?

Am I a natural pessimist or optimist?

Take careful steps and don't look back.

Bringing Butter Back to Life...

My sis wants a guinea pig. My mum is going on and on about the responsibilities involved in taking care of a pet i.e. we won't be able to handle it.

There's a lot of things that we may think that we can't handle, but we can. If we try. Many times, we're a lot stronger than we give ourselves credit for but we'ld rather reproach ourselves. Recently, a friend related a story of how she was bullied in secondary school and no one stood up for her. How this made her into someone who stands up strongly for a friend. Never knew that an incident like that had such an impact on someone like her. As I thank her for being my friend, I recall how I always thought she was the senior who had her own clique and was too cool for me. Guess not. =P

As I re-read a friend's blog just now, I was reminded of something that I constantly ask myself too - am I ever nice enough to ever be someone's chosen Ms Right? Sometimes I find that I really am not a "nice" girl by various definitions but somehow, I seem to have left certain impressions on some ppl that give the impression that I am "nice"... and maybe just enough. Thanks... for thinking so nicely of me. ^ ^

You're not alone. We all have our vulnerable moments where we want to just wallow in self-pity or think that we have to face the difficulties by ourselves. Sometimes we forget that our true friends are always there to lend a helping hand. Even if you don't think you need it, your friend stands by you. So don't lock your heart and throw away the key. Failure just means we need more patience. You may not know it, you may not have faith in it, but God has made plans for you. With each heartache, be it cos of relationships or friendships, comes a better understanding of yourself and your strengths. =)

As an aside, I found out today that the grapevines in the office are well entwined. =P As much as I think I'm just an insignificant employee, there seems to be much interest in my personal life. Wonder how many colleagues actually read my blog?

爱我的人和我爱的人

盼不到我爱的人 我知道我愿意再等
疼不了爱我的人 片刻柔情它骗不了人
我不是无情的人 却将你伤的最深
我不忍我不能
别再认真 忘了我的人

离不开我爱的人 我知道爱需要缘分
放不下爱我的人 因为了解他多么认真
为什么最真的心 碰不到最好的人
我不问我不能
拥在怀中直到他变冷

爱我的人对我痴心不悔
我却为我爱的人甘心一生伤悲
在乎的人始终不对
谁对谁不必虚伪
爱我的人为我付出一切
我却为我爱的人流泪狂乱心碎
爱与被爱同样受罪
为什么不懂拒绝痴情的包围

- 裘海正

The title of this post was originally suppose to be inspired by today's weather but I was suddenly reminded of how this song befits my mood in certain aspects. "爱我的人" and "我爱的人" - can they be the same one? As I wait to find out more about him, he is waiting to find out more about me. Maybe I'm just trying to avoid the issue by letting things take their time to unfurl.

To have faith in God's plans for me.

Sometimes I wonder what I am doing...

Attending an Indian colleague's wedding later. First time I'm attending a wedding at an Indian temple! Cool... YT was asking what colour I'ld be wearing later. Luckily he did - otherwise, we would be colour coordinated on a third occasion. =P

Long weekend. Gotta go to work tmr night. Sigh.

As I stood at the sink earlier...

... washing my bowl, I watched the water flow across the back of my hand in drops and thought of how waterproof our skin can be. =) And I thought, I wouldn't mind being jobless and having no worries until I'm bored to tears or driven to death at home. =P

Then I turned around, moved to the bathroom and started thinking about the work waiting for me in the office.

Spain...

Just caught sight of Casa Batlló, Barcelona in a travelogue where Kym Ng led a group of tourists to Spain. Looks so lovely... Though I've always felt like Italy was the one country that I would like to visit and would satisfy my desire to travel, think I'm gonna add Spain too. =P Will probably be tempted to visit other parts of Europe too if I had seen Terk's photos...

Miss those days when the choir was travelling in Europe! It's been 7 years since we first went to Germany/Luxembourg/Paris/London together! Sigh...

going to Lee Hom's concert!

Yes... after a brief chat with Spinky this morning, I bought my first ticket to a pop concert. =)

Was quite suay just now. I was leaving Suntec and the up-escalator at the overhead bridge to Citylink had broken down. So I had to climb up the stairs. After that, I came to the broken down down-escalator in Citylink. =/

We're having exercise later. Wonder if I'll be able to catch a taxi after that.

So blur. Just got a non-Friendster birthday reminder email and msged my friend thinking that it was her birthday today. When it's actually next Thursday. =P Must be the post-nap gong-ness. =P

Today, marks one month of singleness - well... semi-singleness. =P

Finally got my SE cable to work!

Tada! A cropped pic of my mini-project, which is *hopefully still* sitting on someone's desk now. =P

Ouch.

A girl wearing 4 in stilettos stepped on the middle toe of my right foot on my way home today. =/ Left a small red mark.

Spent 12 hrs in a poorly-ventilated "bunker" today. This morning, my nose was still quite irritated from the bad air yesterday. Thankfully, it cleared up quickly. =) Apparently PS had already complained that we needed more air-conditioning but they couldn't perform magic overnight. =P

Don't know why I was so happy to get his call just now. Scrambled to my phone for fear that he would hang up (though would have been cheaper for me to call him back on my home phone =P). Am I just happy cos I got a response? Or happy cos it's him? Just a 1 min 04 sec call to say where he was. Was a bit disappointed that there were no queries on my toe but then again, it's just a toe. (He clarified that he didn't read the msg carefully. =P)

Tired.

Was looking forward to watching CSI on Channel 5 (hadn't been able to watch cos my parents had been watching Korean/HK drama at the same timeslot for the many past months). Found the remote control, changed the channel and found out that THE SEASON ENDED! *cry*

To add salt to injury, mum just shook her head in disgust at my flabby arms. =/

Will be working late next few nights. Wonder how I'm gonna be able to concentrate. I wonder if I have some sort of sleeping disorder - I sleep lightly at night but at the same time, I can doze off practically anywhere. =P

Bee, may your meetings in Manila go smoothly.

Btw, non-Blogger readers can now post comments on my blog. =)

The sweetest things a guy could do...

Plucked this off XY's blog. =P

1. Leave her cute text messages. (check)
2. Kiss her in front of your friends. (check)
3. Trust her over everyone else. (check)
4. Tell her she looks beautiful. (check)
5. Look her in the eye when you talk to her. (check)
6. Tell her stupid jokes to make her laugh. (check)
7. Let her mess with your hair. (hmmm...)
8. Just walk around with her. (check)
9. Include her in pretty much everything you do. (hmmm...)
10. When she crys do whatever to make her smile. (check)
11. Forgive her for her mistakes. (check)
12. Look at her like she's the only girl you see. (check)
13. Tickle her even if she says stop. (hmmm...)
14. When she starts swearing at you tell her you love her. (i don't swear.)
15. Let her fall asleep in your arms. (check)
16. Get her mad, then kiss her. (check)
17. Tease her and let her tease you back. (check)
18. Stay up with her all night when she's sick. (hmmm...)
19. Watch her favorite movie. (halfway there...)
20. Kiss her forehead. (check)
21. Write her letters. (check - in a way)
22. Let her wear your clothes. (-_-''')
23. When she's sad, hang out with her. (check)
24. Let her know she is important. (check)
25. Let her take all the photos of you she wants. (check)
26. Surprise her with flowers for no reason. (check)
27. Kiss her in the rain. (i fall sick easily in the rain.)
28. And when you fall in love with her, tell her. (check)
29. And when you do tell her.. Love her like you never loved before. (check)

What happens when u've met a guy who's done 22.5 of the 29 items on the list i.e. 77.6%?

Overslept

Haven't taken an afternoon nap in ages! Slept for four full hours just now. *blush*

Was lying on my bed and fiddling with my new markers later. Didn't realise that one of the marker caps fell off. =( Was wondering why I had ink on my palms when I realised that my maker had left a stain the size of a 20-cent coin on my bed. =/ Oh well. Klutzy me.

What am I looking for in a relationship? Should I just rely on a "strong feeling"? Can something that feels right actually be wrong? I guess I need to pray more for clarity and guidance...

Long weeks ahead...

Yup. With S2006 and everyone in the office so stretched, will be working late.

Had Friday's dinner and Saturday's lunch by myself. It was strange. Cos I haven't eaten out alone in a long time.

Had runny nose all yesterday. And was feeling heaty + exhaustion. =P Thankful for lots of honey and TLC.

Doing laundry. Almost slipped on the wet floor. =P

Oh! And was the first to wish Spinky happy birthday last night! Woohoo! Only msged Aki on the morning of her birthday and felt quite bad so this time around, set a hp reminder. =) But then again, technically, if my memory serves me right, Spinky was born in the afternoon so I was too early. =P

Just trying to be nice

Yesterday we waltzed. In front of a large group of people, including our PS. Why? Primarily to make Aunty Cat happy. But also because I wanted to. Cos I wanted to show people that I could dance ok and that I'm not always a klutz? If my singing or dancing can make someone happy, I don't mind having to do it in front of a crowd. =P

Oh... and Happy Teachers Day! To all my teachers and friends who have joined the profession. =) May you continue to mould young minds into great ones.