Flashbacks

Summary:
Sat:
morning went to watch vj choir at Siglap. of course i was intending to sing while vin wasn't. Valli din noe how to get there so she drove but took a wrong turn (or rather, she DIDN'T make the turn =P *my fault*) n took almost forever to get to tampines. by which time we were all ultra high n squeaky from our frantic calling n exchange of road information while she was driving here. =P Surprise, surprise, PROZAC came too! n 2 med boys n a med gal juz launched into a colourful discussion of O&G, littered which multiple syllable terms which din mean anything to me at all. =P n NELLY BELLY called us 超级老人。 HMMPH.

Sun:
skipped tuition for my hair twirling exp. at the end of which, i couldn't believe that it was my own hair. It's so hard to learn how to twist ur own hair looking at the reflection of the auntie demo-ing to u! the 5 hr exp... wasn't really worth it for the money cos it's uncurling liao *sigh* but was worth it in the sense that i finally got to fulfil my wish of dunno how many yrs n get to see what my hair looks like not so straight! YAY!

Mon:
went to orchard AGAIN!!! yet another spontaneous session w my ever so spontaneous friends. =) must be the hols... was looking at various blogs. "Innocent and naive... " - is that me *innocent look*? hahaha... hey... harsh reality of the world. which is why i love my lab. amazingly lucky me managed to find a lab w minimal politics n everyone is juz as crazy as me... or as amy said today, i'm exerting influences on the lab ppl. she say their starting to talk like me... hahaha... even my fren (boss wife) says she kenna my influence too. which may be a bad thing cos Boss finds me extremely noisy at work. hahaha... to which amy said that boss wife got her own brand of chinese (she can't shake off her hong kong accent). =P

Tues: read Digital Life article on Grace Chow. sigh.

Wed (TODAY!):
as usual: msged boss wife when i reached her place.
Not usual: no reply.
after 10 mins, i called boss wife. no reply.
called boss. boss wife picks up n says they've just woken up. -___-
at the end of the day, we (boss and i) went back to lab pick boss wife who wasn't done w work. in the meantime, amy spotted a strand of white hair on my head but lost sight of it. to prove her point, she broke off this 2 cm fragment of my hair --- 1 cm white, 1 cm black --- and announced that i must have been sad then became happy so it turned black again. LOL. anyway, later she managed to pull out an extremely uneven white hair. ARGH! getting old!

after that, we all took boss car down to city area. amy was gonna go "stick" to her hubby, boss n boss wife go shopping. we passed by Raffles hotel at 735pm. to which i JUMPED off the car (literally =P) n made a dash across the road w 18s n counting. hahaha... the jr choir sounded alright... but it really brought back memories of performing there... =( should i join chorale? *GASPS* hahaha...

finally figured out y my nose looks like a tree trunk. my freq sniffling has caused wrinkles to run parallel on it. ARGH! another sign of getting old!!! (read: spinky's n aki's latest blog entry n ctrl-f "Kalms")

2 days down to x'mas!!! *deck the halls w boughs of holly*

Today i had a neck breaking experience that gave me a reason to twirl my hair. =P

Surprise, surprise....

Today i learnt that ppl dun really trust me with their personal particulars. :P
n i thot that spinky takes 40 min baths, which she later clarified that it incl dinner time.

ppl who got calls tonight were told - Lucky draw.
MCQ time:
Did u think that i collected the information for:
A. to sign u guys up for something "fun"... hehe...
B. to use ur details to sign new hp lines.
C. to sell ur details to illegal data collectors.
D. really... to take part in a lucky draw.

If ur answer was B or C...
ARGH! HOW COULD YOU THINK THAT I WOULD DO SUCH A THING??? Shame on u... [edit: *in mock horror*]

If ur answer was D... that's wrong too!

If ur answer was A... well... in a way... it was suppose to be part of a secret x'mas present. it was suppose to be "secret" cos i usually dun give x'ma presents but wanted to surprise u guys w one this yr.

but...
i din manage to complete the task in time. so there will STILL be no x'mas presents this yr.

Today's surprise came in the morning... went for breakfast w my fren n her husband (aka my boss) n we went to Tanjong Katong. As we passed by TKSS n TKGS, i remembered my good old days in my sec sch's old campus. as it turns out, MY BOSS IS ALSO FROM THE SAME SEC SCH! HAHAHAHA... The next surprise was... HE'S MY SEC 3 PHYSICS TEACHER'S BUDDY! Small world this is...

so we talked abt how they were like in sec sch - that they were from st john's n were dispatched to other schs to help them set up st john's clubs... n that they would watch movies EVERY week! of course we gossiped abt teachers too... haha...

so looking forward to meeting my sec 3 physics teacher again at my fren's wedding. =)

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Oh yar, fyi: i din keep the data that i collected tonite.

Leaping lizards

today i got freaked out by a lizard.

opened a drawer out of boredom n saw the lizard staring at me. it was a dark brown colour... must different from the usual greyish green. so i thot it looked a different colour cos it has dead for A LONG TIME. then as i recalled that i opened the same drawer yesterday n that the lizard was there, IT SUDDENLY MOVED!!!!!!! gave me such a scare that i almost jumped. =P

in other news, my boss went to the library today for the first time in dunno how many yrs! and when he tried to borrow books, the librarian told him that he hasn't used his card for so long that it requires re-activation. heehee... anyway, he was trying to borrow books on feng shui. does it really work?

Lost and found

FOUND this in my inbox yesterday:

OLS Networking Nite!

A time to mingle

Don't miss this great opportunity to network and mingle with your counterparts and peers from the various Life Science platforms. This would be an opportune time to share research updates and news, all in a relaxed and social setting.

The inaugural OLS Networking Nite will be held in December 2004. Beer will be served; or if you are a teetotaler, there is always a can of Coke or Sprite. There will be free flow of snacks such as peanuts to complete the ideal setting for a brainstorming session of good ideas, or a simple catch up of how things are going ! All this for a participation fee of $1.00 onwards.

All students and staff from the School of Computing, faculties of Dentistry, Engineering, Medicine and Science are welcome to join us. For the upcoming inaugural opening, both President Shih and Director of Life Sciences, Prof John Wong would be gracing our event. So do lend us your support for the event!

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BEER??? are they encouraging students to drink beer? it's well known that my marine bio prof LOVES beer but the folks at the Office of Life Sciences are encouraging students to drink beer? sheesh. apparently this is gonna be a regular thing... every few months or something.

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LOST
forgot that i haven't given the answer to my last FIB. dunno where the post is so shall juz give a brief idea on what the answers were. so Vin was partially correct... on my birthday. yup... tampines mall, but not crystal jade - was thinking Pizza and Pasta cos haven't eaten that in a while. =P was saying should watch movie first, then can find a place and sit down n talk crap till they close or something... haha...

*Ding*

giant light bulb. yup. that's me. =P

went to wisma AGAIN last nite after wed dinner w the usual suspects (refer to spinky's site). =P w my fren n he husband a.k.a. my boss. they still in the honeymoon stage of marriage... so sweet! AIYOH!!!! can't stand it. hahaha...

the woman din call me today! thank goodness! was getting sick of getting calls every day n being called "ah muay". n she kept insisting that she din call the wrong number!

was surfing around job websites last nite. still undecided as to whether to do admin work/research.

y i should do research:

1. won't have to change my wardrobe (although i'll prob need new socks or more comfortable shoes =P)
2. RA jobs supposedly pay relatively well. (2.2-2.5k?)
3. dun waste my degree

y i shouldn't do research:

1. kind of a dead end cos i doubt i'll wanna do phd?
2. irregular working hours - not conducive for a social life.

so i have no idea wat to do and am likely to apply for everything that comes my way next yr. hahaha...

indecent exposure

Science 4 students will get Sem 1 exam results on CHRISTMAS eve 11AM.

Science 3 studets - means sharon n shu e - will get theirs on CHRISTMAS eve too... but gotta wait till 5PM.

today my sis thot she saw LIU SONG REN at taka. some of u may know my ultra big damian-liu-song-ren-fan fren... whom i made the mistake of calling to inform her. =P never heard her so excited before... hahaha... ordering me to order my sister to stop him n get his autograph/photo.

dropped by my godsis' house today after work. talked abt mice, printing, scandals n rich frens. some ppl have all the luck.

unfinished business

i think yesterday was the first time in my nus days that i couldn't finish the exam.must have been writing too slowly n flipping too vigorously. n felt the sense of panic that "argh! i din complete my sentence!" then for 15 min after the exam, my fren freaked me out by telling me that i misread the question, making me think that my entire half hr's scribble was out of point. turns out HE misread it but it din affect him since he din choose that question.

5 more months to the end of my NUS days... at least as an undergrad. =P

Tales of a shopping queen

i think my friend used this subject for an email 3.5 yrs ago, which sparked off a long-lasting email correspondence between friends. =)

yesterday was ladies' nite at metro paragon. went w my sister cos we haven't been spending quality time (aka SHOPPING) together. So at abt 5pm, we went to metro n checked out everything that we wanted to buy, n made sure we knew where all the freebies were. =P the SK-II counter was so far away from the rest that we decided to juz go for the other freebies instead, although the SK-II was prob worth more. Then at 6 pm we started to queue outside the shop to await entry.

there was a pompous plump woman who was ranting abt this n that. so this kind woman offered to give her the mailer so that she could enter the sale. but the "kind" woman had TWO mailers posted to her (my sis saw the name n add on the mailers). not fair. hmmph.

so u can imagine what it was like - typical crowd of aunties w their daughters. and when people wanted to try n jump queue, the pompous woman told them off n these people were so paiseh that they went to queue. =P

anyway, there was a tremendous queue at SK-II!!!! so we din wanna join the crowd and decided to be content w what we had, namely:

• mont blanc vial
• loreal hydrafresh eye gel
• tommy hilfiger skin lotion
• ettusais bodycare set

then we went to buy what we had in mind. and we spent $100 on:

• loreal products - $60 (so that i can redeem a free bag which prob saves me $20 from going somewhere else to buy a new bag)
• Chomel hair accessories - approx. $20 (very nice!!! i love the butterfly clip! although my sis kind of preferred the flower one. we asked for a third opinion - the salesgirl and she was so funny! she said flower cos she LOVES flowers which we should have known cos she had a flower clip in her hair. =P)
• my typical buy at sales - $16
• a sleeveless top - $13 (cos: [1] to top up to $100 so that can get more metro points. [2] cos i prob need some new tops.)

so we spent the most amt of money we had ever spent in 1 shopping trip and it was really fun except that the stupid cashier (2 of them working together some more) got the items mixed up and overcharged me for 1 item, and didn't charge me for another and this mistake was spotted by the loreal counter lady who wouldn't let me claim the bag cos technically i hadn't spent $60 on the products yet. GRRR... so had to go back n explain...

anyway, now no mood to study. =P so many ppl had their last exams yesterday! but the rain is much lighter now... gtg sch n zap stuff... last paper on mon! WOOHOO!!!

i can't speel!

argh. misplelt DIETHYLSTILBESTEROL yesterday. short form: DES. i totally FORGOT that it has a short-form like that and i missed out the E component - ethyl. SIGH. failed to recognise the diketone structure too. would taking chemical bio have helped? ><

anyway, bad memory these days. struggle to memorise info. thurs paper is a 1 hr, 2 question paper. the CA for this module was relatively easy. will the final be the same? hard to say... sigh...

my back is getting scarred. years of avoiding pimples/acne is finally catching up w me. i don't think it's acne... pimples? dunno leh... i only know it's more bumpy than i remember it being a few years ago. cos of irritation due to my long hair?

speaking of which, thinking to do something abt my hair. should i perm it? been considering for a yr liao. =P but it seems too short for perming.... wanna cut it to less than shoulder length leh... but that's quite troublesome when it reaches the point when it's too short to tie, but too long and keeps the breeze out.

gotta go figure out what exactly the Hardy-Weinberg Equilibrium means now.

Erratum

It was Fresh & White... hee...

Lessons learnt today

1. u can't eat one gelare waffle w ice cream by yourself.

2. y waste money on tiger balm or mopiko when Aquafresh works more effectively on insect bites?

3. post "bridget jones diary" DIET - start watching so many romantic comedies/tragedies/u get the idea.

Toxicology

I've been really slack these few days. watched both "before sunrise" and "before sunset" by myself.

The first film was very idealistic, about sweet romantic love... and the little coincidences made in film were really touching... the way the scenes were shot... made me wanna go vienna or tour europe again. =P the cobbled streets, tiny shops tucked in the corners (instead of malls) and the trams... we actually did take the tram in Linz... and the bus... and i remember the M&Ms mcflurry and tiramisu... IN MACDONALDS!

anyway, back to the films. the second one was more realistic. although i found it a little too cynical. cos now the guy's in a loveless marriage bounded by his son and the girl's so hurt from broken relationships. It's so obvious that they should be together... n fate had them so near, yet so far - he would dream of her in his sleep and wake up crying; he thot he saw her as he went to the church to get married (which he might really have cos the girl happened to live in the neighbourhood at that same point in time). Yet the movie ended without having a true ending in a sense. Being the hopeless romantic that i am, of course i'ld rather he dump his wife and be together with her. but then my fren said that they can't be together. Which really is quite possible cos he HAS a son and she has a boyfriend whom she supposedly loved. just that u can tell that they love each other more than anything else... so basically i'm feeling sad for them and 不甘愿 that they can't be together although they aren't really real. n it really bugs me. silly huh?

then again, would something like this happen in real life? people don't seem to be as romantic as movies would have. ah... reality...

As I Walked Out One Evening

As I walked out one evening,

  Walking down Bristol Street,

The crowds upon the pavement

  Were fields of harvest wheat.



And down by the brimming river

  I heard a lover sing

Under an arch of the railway:

  "Love has no ending.



"I'll love you, dear, I'll love you

  Till China and Africa meet,

And the river jumps over the mountain

  And the salmon sing in the street,



"I'll love you till the ocean

  Is folded and hung up to dry

And the seven stars go squawking

  Like geese about the sky.



"The years shall run like rabbits,

  For in my arms I hold

The Flower of the Ages,

  And the first love of the world."



But all the clocks in the city

  Began to whirr and chime:

"O let not Time deceive you,

  You cannot conquer Time.



"In the burrows of the Nightmare

  Where Justice naked is,

Time watches from the shadow

  And coughs when you would kiss.



"In headaches and in worry

  Vaguely life leaks away,

And Time will have his fancy

  To-morrow or to-day.



"Into many a green valley

  Drifts the appalling snow;

Time breaks the threaded dances

  And the diver's brilliant bow.



"O plunge your hands in water,

  Plunge them in up to the wrist;

Stare, stare in the basin

  And wonder what you've missed.



"The glacier knocks in the cupboard,

  The desert sighs in the bed,

And the crack in the tea-cup opens

  A lane to the land of the dead.



"Where the beggars raffle the banknotes

  And the Giant is enchanting to Jack,

And the Lily-white Boy is a Roarer,

  And Jill goes down on her back.



"O look, look in the mirror?

  O look in your distress:

Life remains a blessing

  Although you cannot bless.



"O stand, stand at the window

  As the tears scald and start;

You shall love your crooked neighbour

  With your crooked heart."



It was late, late in the evening,

  The lovers they were gone;

The clocks had ceased their chiming,

  And the deep river ran on.



- WH Auden

Before sunrise

Why do u think that everybody always think that relationships are suppose to last forever?

stoning

sian of writing. taking a break.

watched an old episode of SMAP bistro where beckham and gutierre were guests. SO FUNNY!!! Shingo was his crazy self as usual n was wearing wigs of hairstyles that beckham had sported b4....

think i'll take a nap now...

Lost time

i've lost time. literally.

i have no idea where my watch is. haven't worn it for a whole week... =( my wrist feels so uncomfortable cos i'm so used to have my watch around it, brushing against the table when i type... WHERE ARE U???

so relieved to have handed in my thesis liao. boss seems to be serious about publishing a paper based on our work. but it was so rushed that a lot of stuff actually wasn't properly done. but he doesn't seem to have considered HIRING me (apparently he's hired student helpers b4) to repeat some of the work. oh well.

exams are in a week's time. JUST started on my 2500 word essay. due tues w my 1 page assignment. oh... n i have a 2 page assignment that's due tmr! but then shu e, sharon n peo should have done most of the work liao. =P prob will have to read thru the whole thing (which i haven't been reading) n cut it down to size.

SLEEPY.

peeling nose

the scalded bit on my nose hasn't healed yet. itchy fingers peeling dead skin off...

yesterday was deepavalli. spent the day in sch. worked till 6am last nite. wow. dun think i've ever stayed up so late (or should i say, early?) . then again, i think i stayed up till abt 5+ b4...

finally finished my thesis! yay! it's kind of stringy.... loose sentences here n there. boss loves my photoshop pics... haha... wanna to offer to help him make nicer ones but NAH......... he wants the original files then he can try n edit them himself lar... hee... mebbe i should start to copyright my work n avoid getting my work "pirated" AGAIN. *think central cdc*

so anyway, a little praise goes a long way... makes me think abt wanting to do research. =p do i have what it takes to go all the way? hmm.

sian

2 days after my birthday n i've fallen back to reality.

it's one of those days, when u're so drained that u wanna splurge on some stuff that u've been wanting for a long time. so someone told me that i didn't look like the type who would spend unnecessary. oh well. i guess when u weigh what u should do n what u want to do, u noe u have to do the right thing. which means she's prob right about me.

am i a workaholic? not really i guess... cos i don't work non-stop. watch lots of tv. =P my msn pals should noe. hee... but then again, after what seems like endless tuition n holiday jobs, can really take a lot out of u...

i don't really mind doing the work, but i suck at planning properly n it's all the paperwork that has to be done at the end that i struggle to sort. =P like, i've lost track of how many _ _ _ _ i've _ _ _ _ _ _ n now that Boss wants to check how come we spent so much, hopefully my figures are correct. at least should be? i think so...

anyway, it's one of those days when u feel so tired of what u're doing, n wish u had someone to pamper u. y someone? cos i can't bear to spend on myself. =P which explains the post-birthday depression. it was so nice to have someone pamper u for one nite, then u're back to struggling for yourself.

so back to work.

Break away

I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly
I'll do what it takes til' I touch the sky
I'll make a wish
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway

Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I won't forget all the ones that I loved
I'll take a risk
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway

-Kelly Clarkson, Princess Diaries 2: Royal Engagement

=)

The movie was great! CHRIS PINE IS SOOOOOO CUTE! he looks like Brad Pitt, only younger! he's 24! had a few bit parts in CSI miami and ER... seems like PD2 is is first movie! wonder if they'll make a PD3 n get him to act too? haha...

so we all agreed that ice cream is a must on this day every yr forth since we had ice cream too last yr... =P 3 yrs from today, we can eat gelare's half-priced waffles (provided that they still have such an offer =P)! it was great fun... n we got to see eunice's graduation photos (at last) and the photos that we took at spinky's place when we watched PD1. we all agreed that prozac's such a poser. =P

The next outing... will prob be after our exams. sigh... exams... sigh...

Dinner at crystal jade: approx $40-$50.
Movie on a saturday: $59.50.
Ice cream cake at swensens: $35.10.

A lifetime of friendship n memories:

PRICELESS

sigh

3 years away from hitting mid-twenties! argh.

got scalded by oil today while trying to help my mum fry chicken wings. =(

not everyone's free for dinner tonight. =( suppose to be a once a yr thing but then the ppl u would like to spend it with are juz too bz for u. sigh. but i guess i should still be glad that today's turnout should be one of the better ones liao. =) hope the movie will be great!

Sigh

haven't finish my poster for thurs that needs to be printed tmr. enough said.

fib of the week:

let's go   _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _     _ _ _ _   on   _ _     _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ ! we could go eat p _ _ _ _ or p _ _ _ _ ... then   _ _ _ _ _     P _ _ _ _ _ _ _     _ _ _ _ _ _ _     _. we should probably  _ _ _ _ _  first so that can just find somewhere and    _ _ _     _ _ _ _    and   _ _ _ _   for as long as we want after. =P

Go figure.

lalala...

decided to give up on the chapter listing. =)

response is unexpectedly good for the FIBs... so will try to make it a bi-weekly thing.

sinus acting up again. ouch. must be the rainy weather. thank goodness it was hot and sunny on sunday morn. otherwise there's prob no way that my socks will dry.

got myself into more "trouble" today. gotta quantify my mRNA. sigh. hopefully the data will be good. today freddie said that whenever i say results looks "good", he gets scared. =P he was in a really good mood today... approved leave quite readily. mebbe cos primary sch kids having hols now and he's enjoying time with his kids. =P

only halfway thru sorting my data!!! ARGH!!! must finish poster by tmr nite. sigh.

*hope that everything goes well tmr*

Chapter 12. Surprise.

Didn't realise that wenay reads my blog too! THANKS! =)

which makes me want to say something that i've been meaning to say for some time... so jealous of u and W actually. =) always look so 幸福!!! *green with envy* but i'm really glad that you 2 are together. cos W deserves the best and if anyone can make W feel happy, it'll have to be you. =)

Chapter 10.1. Life part 2.

the body of the Chinese girl whose story touched the lives of many has been found. Singaporeans have been trying so hard to find her... especially her poor mum. And she really was found at a hill... just like in the dream.

O levels start TOMORROW!!!! *pray that nicky pass*

Chapter 11. Stuck.

my sinuses have been giving me a bad headache since yesterday. doesn't seem to show any signs of abating.

dunno how to smoke thru my thesis. sigh.

yesterday i met a guy who knows what he wants. He wanted to do Med but didn't get in on his first try. So he got an Engineering degree instead THEN apply for Med (which he got). And he wants to go into research or child psychology... wow... do guys at 27 always know what they want? like my other 27 yr old friend... actually i think he's 28 this year. Mebbe cos they have already "wasted" a couple of years in their lives so they know better. Will i end up going in circles for a couple of years too, before i finally figure out what i want?

hmmm.

Chapter 11. Missed

juz realised that i missed out chapter 5. oh well. =P

stuck in lab as usual. y? cos blur blur me keep making mistakes. hai.

more FIBs?

Got some good _ _ _ _ _ _ these few weeks. I wish i could go _ _ _ _ _     _ _ _ _ _ _     _ _ _ _ _ _. It seems like quite a sweet _ _ _ _ _. Then there's _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _     _ _ _ _ _ _ _ 2 which is prob gonna be really funny although one of my friends dismissed it as "_ _ _ _ _ _ _ are never good."

Go figure.

"What does it mean - the right man? The concept is absurd. The idea that we can only be complete with another person is EVIL, right?"

Chapter 10. Life

Seems like a life in Thailand is only worth USD250. sigh.

Jason Hsu assaulted a member of the paparazzi!

Still struggling to sort my results.

For those who don't read the comments posted on my page, he-who-is-wondering-what-he-is-doing-in-Med (which frankly, i think many ppl in Med prob feel the same way too) has solved the FIB.

There's a dragonfly stuck in my house. apparently it loves my ceiling lamp and is getting it's kicks sticking onto the lamp and occasionally knocking its wings against the lampshade.

Chapter 9. Lemongrass

Today we went Lemongrass for dinner... =) Boss' treat! 4 of us squeezed in the back of his car while he drove w Bernie next to him... Academics ah... talk abt work non-stop! they went on and on about research and what they can do... i was the ONLY Singaporean in the car and i had no idea how to get to Heeren's carpark. Not my fault that i decide not to learn how to drive? =P anyway, i think easterners like me dun really noe how to get around from nus to anywhere else. =P

We must have spent at least $360... but had a $120 voucher lar... still, he was quite amazed at the cost. the mango w glutinous rice was very good!!! better than Thai Express! the red ruby wasn't too sweet either. everyone was laughing and laughing about all sorts of things during dinner while boss, bernie n our GOH talked about work. =P

today's results weren't too good. sigh. no idea what went wrong. wasted effort. =( still feeling crummy that didn't do very well for the last marine bio ca. hai...

argh... i hate the end of projects when u have to sort your data and stuff. so irritating... sigh...

Chapter 8.1. More bumps

today my colleague had a huge ulcer... and a relatively large red blister... poor thing... we're starting to wonder if her immunity is ok... so our in-house dermatologist was at it again. tried to fix her up. hopefully she'll get better soon. =)

Today i bought 8 days! my first copy! reminds me of my pri sch days when i use to stand at the local medicinal shop and read the drama series synopsis... hahaha... anyway, bought it cos there was a 日本 travelogue. But kenna cheated... nothing much inside one. -____- n this issue of 8 days was rather boring... *yawn* i think i weekly got more content/gossipy stuff...

Another bad day at work. poor/no results. suspected contamination. hopefully my elisa will be ok tmr...

Oh yar... watched CSI last nite! but only caught the 2nd half. and my parents were talking to each other loudly as usual. so couldn't really follow. But i think it doesn't seem as good as it used to be? or mebbe it's just the episode that they showed yesterday...

So prozac says my FIB is too difficult. Mebbe we should play hangman instead. =P anyway, tried to insert additional spaces but couldn't.

"The new H _ _ _ _     _ _ _ _ _ collection launched by M _ _ _ _ _ _ _ ' _ is kind of cute... at least they look so in the ads. Some of the colours are really nice but then must buy a E _ _ _ _     _ _ _ _ _     _ _ _ _ and top up $_ . _ _ then can buy. -_- anyway, been out for about 2 weeks liao n the colour that i like best is prob sold out. sigh..."

Go figure.

Chapter 8. Bump.

Bumped into KY and ZX at the library today. the whole bunch of them were having some sort of gathering in the dark corners of the library and ZX was like "y am i bumping into everyone today?" So was going home already but KY says he's got a ride home so he's not gonna take the mrt w me. -___- he asked me to ask ZX if he drove but figured he's not gonna want to have to send another person home. besides, would prob be awkward.

Juz visited www.strangerhood.com. SO FUNNY... which reminds me how i screwed up the wedding party of my baby gal juz now... the groom left! the guests are leaving cos it's past their bedtimes! the party is still on though... n worst thing is, I ACCIDENTALLY SAVED!!! ARGH!!!! mebbe shall play the groom character n organise a wedding party at his place instead. but that would mean my baby gal's leaving the nest... *sob*

anyway, 2 MORE WEEKS!!!! STRESSED.....

let's play FIB - Fill In the Blanks.

"The new _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ collection launched by _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ is kind of cute... at least they look so in the ads. Some of the colours are really nice but then must buy a _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ and top up $_ . _ _ then can buy. -_- anyway, been out for about 2 weeks liao n the colour that i like best is prob sold out. sigh..."

Go figure.

Chapter 7. HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO WAYNE ROONEY!!!

OH YEAH!!!!

Man U has ended Arsenal's 49 match unbeaten run!

AND rooney scored against Arsenal AGAIN!

AND Ruud scored too!!! 2-0!!!

Mebbe still got chance to win the league...

*cross fingers*

Chapter 6.1. Insomnia

Stressed. bad day today. only perk was that i got voted most delectable by the good people of my lab. They figured that since i'm 白白胖胖, would taste really good. -_-''' then i heard that the other contender is the masters student, who's "black" n tough. haha...

Anyway, couldn't really sleep last night. Maybe cos it was cold. or cos of the mosquito bites. Hopefully can sleep tonite. Had cheese sandwich and banana milkshake for lunch today. BAD IDEA... too cold for milkshake. But had a good dinner!!! got home at 8! WOW! AND DINNER WAS STILL WARM! AND HAD SILKEN TOFU SOUP! yummy... =)

losing track of time. Forgot to watch CSI on tues *argh* and forgot that it's thurs. Kept thinking that today's wed. So missed the front bit of Singapore Idol. oh well...

In the news, my former sec sch VP who became my sis's sec sch's principal is moving places again! going to RI, to replace the current principal, who was once my brother's headmaster in another sch! so we're all tied to principals and RI in a certain way. Can tell that i'm going bonkers right?

TWO WEEKS MORE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!! can't wait for the semester to be over.

Chapter 6. Allergy

Allergy is a form of over-reaction. yeah... maybe i'm suffering from that. Am i just over-reacting? Still find that i'm damn fed up with someone i know, who seems to be creating inconveniences here and there and not knowing it. SIGH.

Need somewhere to scream. Hopefully can still sleep tonight.

Chapter 4.1. Word of the Month - Troubleshooting

Y? cos everything we do has to be troubleshooted. Trial and error. Practice makes perfect. Failure is the mother of success. SIGH.

went home at 7 today. considered early liao... was so hungry and wanted a nice home-cooked dinner and was rewarded with my dad's cooking - fish cooked in sugar, sauce, tomato and LEMON. Note that i believe that the lemon was from a few months ago when i was toying with the idea of baking more cheesecakes. So the atrocious thing was sweet, sour AND BITTER, unevenly tasting i must add. OH! and guess what? YOU CAN'T TASTE ANY FISH IN IT. -___- Told my mum to stop my dad from cooking (not the first time we've had to bear with his "flair" for cooking to which he insists that we can't appreciate) or i'll just stop eating home altogether. Hope that works. But doubt it. SIGH.

Deadlines, deadlines... why ARE they called deadlines? cos if u cross the line, then you're dead? More tuition tomorrow = yet another exasperating session of trying to connect with my student. SIGH.

If you noticed, i've been trying to make an effort to write in proper english just in case my Chinese friends decided to read my blog regularly and hopefully, it'll help them to improve their english. 加油！

Chapter 4. New experiences

Got my eyebrows plucked for the first time today! Courtesy of my cousin... =P was SOOOOOOOO painful but she assured me that frequent plucking would numb the pain. -_-''' Anyway, i think she did a pretty good job of removing all of the stray bits... then we started threatening to pluck her brother's leg hairs cos he was wasting time as usual. *sighs*

approx 2 weeks to 2nd presentation! and my birthday! and 3 weeks to my assignment/term paper/thesis due dates!!! argh. will i be prepared? dunno which to do first... but then again, still haven't actually finish my proj. *sighs* gonna be a crummy birthday.

Chapter 3.4. "The last train to Boon Lay has departed..." AGAIN.

so today was a really busy day... machine screwed me up in the morn.... wasted a bit of time trying to get it to run properly. ran more gel later but found that the results aren't too ideal. mebbe i din mix the samples well enough? dunno... mebbe will repeat next week.

then went arts to get a lift from Spinky and her parents' to VJ. TODAY IS VJ'S OPEN HOUSE! and jac's mum pointed out a sign on a car that said "Feng shui parking. Do not comment." and i didn't understand what it meant. Spinky 's mum explained that prob cos Feng shui = putting things at weird/crooked positions, so "Feng shui parking" is a good excuse for poor parking. =P

Vj has done even more renovations! and their new advertising campaign looks great! got to see our old choir trophies from afar... and ate HAM AND CHEESE OMELETTE! oh! and saw my old Bio teacher... she couldn't recognise me, but she remembers Pang hung. Then when i identified myself, she said that i lost weight, especially that my face is sharper now. Godma also commented that last year and she felt that i look terrible without chubbier cheeks. But how to put weight on your cheeks without affecting your other areas? -_-

then went to jac's place and watch "Princess Diaries" again... =) IT'S STILL SO FUNNY! i guess especially when u're watching with a bunch of friends. we MUST go and watch "Princess Diaries 2" together! Spinky's mum prepared Shrimp paste chicken, Cereal Prawns and Bee Hoon... WAS SO YUMMY! while washing hands, discussed some new cooking/food prep techniques with Spinky's mum as usual. =P But actually i'm all theory, hardly any practice. mebbe when i'm more free, i'll try out some of the dishes. =)

After dinner, watched more of 5566's TV shows... haven't watched variety tv for a while. these days mostly watch what my mum's watching (Ch 8) if i get home early enough, or mostly reality TV... N we adjourned to Spinky's room where we read blogs and took photos of various photos from 5566 posters. Not to mention watch Aki and Prozac dance to "easy come easy go"... N we're deprived of KTV! must plan for one after exams!

Oh yar... eyelid finally stopped twitching *i think*. but nothing exceptionally good happened. in fact, i think my sensitive nose flu worsened. got a bit of cough too. or mebbe it's juz that i haven't been geting enough rest. thankfully tmr no need to get up early. Except to watch Prince of Tennis. hee...

Chapter 3.3. The last train to Boon Lay has not departed...

2nd night in a row i'm staying late in sch. but tonight, should finish by 915. But gonna miss at least half of The Apprentice finale. Sigh. Oh well.

left eyelid still hasn't stopped twitching. been twitching every now and then since yesterday. watching singapore idol in lab now. OOH. just heard that new season of csi won't be so late liao. 10pm. DARN!!! that must mean i missed the last episode last nite!!! argh!!! sigh.

back to work...

Chapter 3.2. "The last train to Boon Lay has departed..."

so got home at 11.45PM juz now. dead tired but still wanted to bathe n eat my dinner... or supper i guess. Fried chicken wings at midnight... does anyone know if eating oily stuff late at night makes u fatter than if u eat it in the day? or mebbe it's a matter how how well u digest your food - sitting up or lying down.

was thinking to start fussing abt my day, but juz now while i ate, i read my fellow bloggers' posts. how depressing. everyone seems to be depressed over something these days. Someone talked of having a weak character. Well... i guess i was too, in pri and sec sch especially. But growing up over the next few years made me bitter with the situation i was in and i guess u'll just have to learn to be more vocal... Which reminds me of "you've got mail". Meg Ryan's character was the sweet, innocent lady who couldn't bring herself to scold Tom Hanks but when she finally did, she immediately regretted it. But seriously, arguments can be good for your health. Maybe the other party will actually UNDERSTAND where u are coming from, or at least u get everything off your chest. Someone once said to me that i prob can handle stress relatively well because i voice out my unhappiness all the time n don't keep anything bottled up.

On the topic of friends, i guess some people are just jerks and ultra competitive. Hey... u're not the only one who's left out from the information loop. sometimes people i see EVERY DAY can hold on to stuff meant for me FOR WEEKS. But that's the thing about working as a group i guess. u'll just have to learn to cope w "office politics" in some form or another sooner or later. i guess some people just don't know the true meaning of friends... i've heard of people saying that they don't need their friends of 6 yrs anymore since they are going to do different courses in university.

mebbe our problem was that we've been too protected in our circle of frens. we've known each other, what? 6-10 years already... and we've been through a lot together. We can't claim to know each other really well cos we only spend at most a few hours a week together, but we understand each other... how some of us will forever be late, and appreciate each other's efforts to keep things going. =) I used to want to study medicine, but right now, i'm thankful that i didn't get through cos if i did, i wouldn't have to company of great frens like sharon, peony, shu e, hsing dee, jeremy and farhana...

So to those friends who feel lost and don't know who they are, you don't need anyone else to tell u what kind of a person u really are. what others perceive of u may not be who u truly are, and people who've known you for a long time may not truly know you at all. Just take things one step at a time... It's probably the stress of work getting to u. So don't be too hard on yourself if people misunderstand u. i'm sure u know who u are, be confident of yourself, and not let anyone or anything get to u. =)

To those friends who are pissed off with their so-called friends, maybe its all fated. Or at least u can look at it from another point of view: without such jerks, u may not truly appreciate the true friends around u. "Forever friends" - we used to write in each other's autograph books. There are people out there who care about u and appreciate what u have done for them... u're just looking at the wrong section right now.

Life always has a way of balancing itself out...

Chapter 3.1. Analysis

So yeah... working really hard rite now to ensure minimal debt when i graduate next yr...

Who doesn't want to live life to the fullest? and i so want to do a proper project w minimal hiccups...

got a relatively big ego i guess... =P but to me, it can be more a form of self-confidence.

optimistic abt the future... hmmm... i guess sufficiently so? and yar... need to do stuff w "urgent and hectic intensity" cos time seems to fly by so quickly.... gonna have to start working next yr... no more sch hols. =( and still have so many things that i would have liked to learn in my current free time...

Chapter 3. How well do you know yourself?

So juz now, Zx pointed me to the direction of a personality test. Took it, and it gave a somewhat accurate description of me... But i think the most accurate personality test i've ever done is at http://www.colorquiz.com. E.g. here are my results for today...

Your Existing Situation

Working to create for herself a firm foundation on which to erect a secure, comfortable, and problem-free future, in which she will be granted respect and recognition.

Your Stress Sources

Feels that life has far more to offer and that there are still important things to be achieved--that life must be experienced to the fullest. As a result, she pursues her objectives with a fierce intensity that will not let go of things. Becomes deeply involved and runs the risk of being unable to view things with sufficient objectivity, or calmly enough; is therefore in danger of becoming agitated and of exhausting her nervous energy. Cannot leave things alone and feels she can only be at peace when she has finally reached her goal.

Your Restrained Characteristics

Emotionally inhibited. Feels forced to compromise, making it difficult for her to form a stable emotional attachment.

Egocentric and therefore quick to take offense. Sensitive and sentimental, but conceals this from all except those very close to him.

Your Desired Objective

Seeks success, stimulation, and a life full of experience. Wants to develop freely and to shake off the shackles of self-doubt, to win, and to live intensely. Likes contacts with others and is enthusiastic by nature. Receptive to anything new, modern, or intriguing; has many interests and wants to expand her fields of activity. Optimistic about the future.

Your Actual Problem

The fear that she might be prevented from achieving the things she wants leads her to play her part with an urgent and hectic intensity.

Chapter 2.2. More names.

Sigh. having problems w my proj. for some reason, my 2 sets of primers aren't working. no bands. =( everyone trying to help me figure out what i can do... will i need to get a 3rd set of primers??? boss wants me to try primers for other targets too... sigh...

in the meantime, secretly eating in you-know-where. juz now dropped some biscuits on the floor, hopefully won't attract any ants. =P but amy has already placed some ant-killing drugs on the floor so should be ok? hee...

Thesis is due in less than a month!!! term paper is due in a month!!! exams are coming!!! O levels are coming!!! ARGH.

Note to self:
STOP PLAYING THE SIMS 2.
Yesterday spent an hour playing at night and didn't save cos made a mess of my family. Let me intro them: There's the Dad, the Mum, the Son, the Daughter in law, the Daughter and the Grand-daughter. Had a party to celebrate Grand-daughter's birthday n invited the WRONG people. So Daughter caught her fiance (another character i created) cheating with Black (my sis's character) and was heartbroken. So was Blue (Black's husband). So a slapping match ensued. Too many people in the house n everything happened so quickly that it was out of control. Hence, no save. Been happening quite recently in my game actually. that people get caught cheating at parties. the neighbourhood is quite messed up. =P

OH! and yesterday, Dad caught fire and burnt to death cos i didn't invest in a fire alarm. -_- again, too many people around and in the confusion, i didn't manage to get to plead w the Grim Reaper for Dad's life. So no save too.

Chapter 2.1. What's in a name?

Juz added a new link to another fren's blog site... it's a craze sweeping thru my choir pals rite now... =P "Spinkypinkie"... juz realised that that kind of sounds like "Pinky Winky". for those w poor memory, think purple creature w antenna on its head and a television for a belly. =P

Chapter 2. Names and aches.

Someone juz asked me y i'm using "Greencraft". Well, that's cos i'm partial to nature and i like to make crafts. Used it for secret pals game in jc choir... =P

Y grasshopper? cos in sec sch, i used to make lots of grasshoppers out of palm tree leaves. was so scared that the Gardening teacher in charge may one day catch me plucking leaves from his beloved trees so eventually moved on to another signature craft.

Y bi ti chong? thanks to amy... =) got a sensitive nose n can sneeze quite violently for no reason sometimes... so she started calling me that whenever i come sniffling along...

speaking of which. having headache AND sinus AND generally feeling not too good. =( sucks when u're allergic to paracetamol. -____-

Chapter 1. Reason

Juz following the crowd...

I have no idea how long i can maintain this but let's juz see... :)

juz read ZX's most recent post - something which i have questioned him b4? who or what do we live for? For years i thot that i wanna live my life in a certain "perfect" way but things have turned out to be far from expected. Or rather, mebbe i've juz been too locked up im my own dream of what i want my life to be to realise that unexpected bumps along the way have made certain ideals impossible... Mebbe i'm juz a control freak n don't like the way things have been screwed up.

Then again, as one of my T-shirt says, "if nothing went wrong, life would be pretty boring." so hey, even if something gets you really down, life still goes on... we juz have to think POSITIVE. Age has brought along problems that you never thot you would encounter... e.g. my first brush with office politics a few years back, finding out that your friend is depressed and nothing you say can snap him/her out of it... yeah, life can be pretty depressing sometimes but people move on... But what goes around, comes around and life will still manage to balance itself out for you. :) So to all those depressed friends out there, SMILE, BE HAPPY.

There's gotta be more to life.

Chapter 1.2. Butterfly effect

Continuing on the theme of control over your own life, i guess y The Sims is such an immensely popular game is cos players get to simulate various scenarios that may/ may not happen in their lives... Great mystery, life is. We live it, but we cannot tell what can happen in the next minute. And many times, you regret what you have done n wish you can turn back time. If we could, how different would the world be?

Chapter 1.1. The depressed antidepressant

It's ok to let yourself get depressed, really... as long as you recognise that you aren't doing too well and find someone who has immense persausive power and can wake you up. then again, not many frens can be like the Therapist in THE SIMS 2, 5 mins of hypnosis/counselling and they're good as new... =P But friends will always be there when you need them, so don't hesitate to "enrich" their phone bills. ^^

The Sims 2... terrible release date. waited at least a year for it and they juz had to release it at the busiest time of my uni life. -__- but it's really fun!!! major improvement from The Sims in terms of visual effects and interactions! but sometimes the repeat WOOHOO clips can really get on your nerves...

Way past my bedtime liao... but haven't been playing for a few days so it's ok to take a break rite? =P seeking approval from others... i guess cos we're all juz lost souls trying to find our direction in life at the moment. It's a sort of assurance that you're heading in the right direction i guess. Should i continue being a mouse killer, or go sit at a desk 9-5? got another half a yr to decide... Mum says i should do masters n go on to get a PhD and show SOME people that we can produce a professor in the house. Dreams, ideals, reality... can be so different from one another. It doesn't matter how many detours you have to make along the way. Mebbe you'll take longer than expected, mebbe you'll feel lost halfway. But eventually you'll find your happiness. =)