Chapter 3.2. "The last train to Boon Lay has departed..."

so got home at 11.45PM juz now. dead tired but still wanted to bathe n eat my dinner... or supper i guess. Fried chicken wings at midnight... does anyone know if eating oily stuff late at night makes u fatter than if u eat it in the day? or mebbe it's a matter how how well u digest your food - sitting up or lying down.

was thinking to start fussing abt my day, but juz now while i ate, i read my fellow bloggers' posts. how depressing. everyone seems to be depressed over something these days. Someone talked of having a weak character. Well... i guess i was too, in pri and sec sch especially. But growing up over the next few years made me bitter with the situation i was in and i guess u'll just have to learn to be more vocal... Which reminds me of "you've got mail". Meg Ryan's character was the sweet, innocent lady who couldn't bring herself to scold Tom Hanks but when she finally did, she immediately regretted it. But seriously, arguments can be good for your health. Maybe the other party will actually UNDERSTAND where u are coming from, or at least u get everything off your chest. Someone once said to me that i prob can handle stress relatively well because i voice out my unhappiness all the time n don't keep anything bottled up.

On the topic of friends, i guess some people are just jerks and ultra competitive. Hey... u're not the only one who's left out from the information loop. sometimes people i see EVERY DAY can hold on to stuff meant for me FOR WEEKS. But that's the thing about working as a group i guess. u'll just have to learn to cope w "office politics" in some form or another sooner or later. i guess some people just don't know the true meaning of friends... i've heard of people saying that they don't need their friends of 6 yrs anymore since they are going to do different courses in university.

mebbe our problem was that we've been too protected in our circle of frens. we've known each other, what? 6-10 years already... and we've been through a lot together. We can't claim to know each other really well cos we only spend at most a few hours a week together, but we understand each other... how some of us will forever be late, and appreciate each other's efforts to keep things going. =) I used to want to study medicine, but right now, i'm thankful that i didn't get through cos if i did, i wouldn't have to company of great frens like sharon, peony, shu e, hsing dee, jeremy and farhana...

So to those friends who feel lost and don't know who they are, you don't need anyone else to tell u what kind of a person u really are. what others perceive of u may not be who u truly are, and people who've known you for a long time may not truly know you at all. Just take things one step at a time... It's probably the stress of work getting to u. So don't be too hard on yourself if people misunderstand u. i'm sure u know who u are, be confident of yourself, and not let anyone or anything get to u. =)

To those friends who are pissed off with their so-called friends, maybe its all fated. Or at least u can look at it from another point of view: without such jerks, u may not truly appreciate the true friends around u. "Forever friends" - we used to write in each other's autograph books. There are people out there who care about u and appreciate what u have done for them... u're just looking at the wrong section right now.

Life always has a way of balancing itself out...